Walk! Don't Run.

2005-09-10T14:08:00.000+08:00

hello.
i think i'm pretty much done here.
i'm getting sick of the posts and everything.
so msn, email me for my new blog add!
thanks.

2005-09-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

the cute UNDERRATED one.

everytime i'll blog about meimeiruiruimeimeiruirui..
i hardly blog about the elusive little_rach85.
HARDLY.
but she has a special place in everybody's heart lar.
shes the CUTE one of the group.
(not like that ajm, ajm is ACBC but rach is NASC.)
what is NASC you may ask.
NASC stands for Not Acting Still Cute.
she is cute even when she frowns, snores, laughs, shouts, raises her hands in the most chorlor fashion.
she cannot escape her CUTE destiny, but its inborn lar girl. no point trying to convince us otherwise.
anybody who sees her will exclaim: oh so cute!! doesn't she look like she's 15!
and then little_rach85 will grimace and retort: i hate people calling me cute.
but to her utter dismay, she looks even cuter when she's angry.
HAHAHAHA.
i owe her an apology lar.
why?
because she seems rather sad that she rarely makes an appearance here.
there little_rach85, u see, i even do collage for u lor... i am a gd fliend sia.
she's a special one alright.
she doesnt disturb me when i doze off on the train, unlike other people who'll shake me up for sleeping and force me to carry on a decent conversation with them in my very sleepy state.
she's the ON one. even if shes tired and there's a sudden last min plan to go kboxing or clubbing, she'll be there.
she entertains me in class when everyone else is paying attention.
she's one of the main partners-in-crime when we start jacking AJM.
without her.
there cannot be a complete redang girls.
she used to be the Ocube.
Odd One Out.
but now no more lar.
she's the
OsquareI.
Odd One In.
heheheh.
love you love you.

2005-09-09T03:10:00.000+08:00

ajm is still wonderfully productive in her shingly state! heheh.

2005-09-09T03:03:00.000+08:00

ajm is still wonderfully productive in her shingly state! heheh.

2005-09-08T03:51:00.000+08:00

this is her. and her major ailment.

shingle bells shingle bells shingle bells rock.
shingle sleigh and shingle bells ring.

oops.
ok.
not funny.

ajm has got shingles.
its supposedly a really big deal.
2 days ago when she complained about a small tiny 20cent rash.
i brushed it off with a laugh.
telling her: aiya, must be u smelly, never take your bath, dirty then kanna rashes.
now i'm really eating my words.
eventhough hers is really minor....
(a good thing she went to the doc early, its only the size of a 50cent coin.)
i know it can get pretty jialat.
in chinese, they call it snake or something.
it supposedly looks like one, the "rash" goes in circles.
acc. to the doctor, its contagious and very deadly for old people.
if it were on your face and your eyes got infected, you'd go blind.
she can get a 2 week mc if she wants to.
but that woman.. dont know what snapped in her brain, still wants to report for work.
YOU'RE SICK!! STAY HOME!!
so i can't meet her for awhile. i dont want to catch it also can....
i say its retribution for skipping work for one week, claiming she had "mumps".
now see lar!! really got somehing big happen.

i hope she gets well.
then we can eat ajisen ramen together.
-sigh-
take care lar my acbc friend.
who to laugh at if u can't hang out with us?

[edit:

courtesy of ajm

this picture is sent by ajm.
a true depiction of exactly where her shingles are.
she says my earlier pic posted is too unprofessionally done and besides her shingles are not so jialat.
contestant no.1 has backed out of the competition.
why?
because, seriously.....
who wants to enter this kind of competition?!
miss shingly 2005?!!!
wth.
poor rui.. kanna forced to join.

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2005-09-07T00:11:00.001+08:00

ruirui and i have a very HIGH level of friendship.
our friendship is so special that she keeps it a secret.
yeah a SECRET.

one fine sunny day.
down the streets of orchard road.
a surveyor walked up to us, insisting that we did her survey.
i wanted to hurry away.
but rui and rachel being the nicer ones agreed.
so there i was in the sweltering heat, watching the 2 of them fill in the forms.
i was standing next to rui when she announced: sophia i help u fill in ah.
then even the surveyor was suprised lar.
ruiru wrote down all my particulars, details, preferences and dislikes without a word.
as if it was second nature.
i was so touch-ched can.
then the surveyor asked: wow! you 2 look like really good friends yeah?
there i was, with all my enthusiam, bobbing my head up and down and saying: oh yeah we are very close leh.
then guess what rui said without even looking up from the pad of paper: huh? OK friends only lar.
i nearly killed her can.
and she had the audacity to think it was DAMN funny.
later on when the surveyors left us she went on and on about how hilarious my enthusiastic reply was.
"hahahhahahah damn funny sia! i like damn calm cool and collected then u down there so enthu"
leeruirui. i will get you!

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we're always on a relentless quest for material things.
i want that bag, i want that pair of shoes, i want that top, i want this! i want that!
i want i want i want.
there's always a new trend emerging, a new style u like, more accessories to acquire to match your clothes, more clothes, yeah more and more clothes.
everyone who has bought clothes we did not want in a sale which still has its tag attached say "aye".

i dont know.
my favourite top now, sooner or later just gets buried right at the back or underneath another newer pile of clothes.
i buy buy buy.
then stash stash stash.
wear the same few favourite pieces.
or i buy a brand new top, wear it once.. and it'll never see the light of day ever again.
all that money.
IF i had saved it.
will amount to a pretty substantial figure.
maybe retail therapy isn't exactly therapy afterall.
at least not for me, because it burns a huge hole in my already burnt pocket.

oh shucks.
i wish i'd cut down on all my stupid purchases.
really.
and mend that burn.

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school's starting real soon....
oh the joy!
and im not being sarcastic here.
4 and a half months of holidays is a wee bit too long.
lets hope i wont bite my own tongue when school is in full swing and i badly need a break.

let the festivities begin!!
haha.

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2005-09-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

one day my mom told me liars go to hell.
and u know how when u tell one small lie.
it just wouldn't end there.
u'll have to lie to cover up your first lie.
and then, a 3rd lie to cover up the 2nd and 1st one.
and it'll be this big huge merry-go-round, where the mountain of lies just grows and grows.
and finally when things don't seem to tally, the different lies contradict each other.
thats when the bubble bursts, right in your own damn face.

and the only idiot is you.
standing there.
realising that...
maybe, it wouldnt have been that bad telling the truth in the first place.
maybe, it'll save you from the constant gnawing of guilt in your heart.
maybe, your conscience will not haunt you in the dead of the night when u jerk out of sleep while u dreamt of the worst scenario that could happen because u lied.

lying is bad.
didn't your mom ever tell u that?

/

but then again,
who has never told that white lie.
the white lie that get you out of your chores.
the white lie that u tell to wriggle out of difficult situations.

the "oh i can't go because my cat died." (yeah i have a friend who uses it all the time. wth right?!! and he doesn't even own a cat. i thought lame-ass excuses like that will never work but people actually believed him.)

but white lies ARE still lies right?
oh -sigh- the debate rages on.

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i just watched america's next top model.
if u thought Singaporean's can hardly read.
look at our American counterparts. seriously.
tsktsk.

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i like the word "and" alot.
AND use it alot in mypost.
hahaha.

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2005-09-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

my daddy.
has only 1 kidney.
it is saturday.
3rd sept.
not a very good day at all.
i'm tired.
nights world.

2005-08-31T20:08:00.000+08:00

yakun, youtiaos, bbq-ed chilli sotongs, chricken cutlet rice, chicken wings, selegie tau huay, mcspicy birger, curly fries, 9 piece mcnuggets, normal fries, soya bean, green tea, prata, beef bowl...

ive been eating so damn much.
moreever, rachel and i even made last minute plans for a food hunt.
which we fulfilled.
yes, i cant believe it.. we actually walked to sunshine plaza, selegie.... all for the sake of food.
the moment any one of us gets our license.
it'll be geylang for supper. no more lets walk to 201 nearby for prata.
oh fuck.
i can hardly move now.
goodness gracious me.
i need to start swimmming/joggin.. ok exercising.
i am a living breathing blob.
blob, i am.
pulsating... wobbling... vibrating.. quivering.. bumbling.... blob of blobber.

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today stupid mr.z wrestled with me.
and when i tried to punch him.
i ended up hitting my wristbone against his stupid kneecap.
now even typing HURTS.
and he pinned me down n pulled my hair.
phucker.
pain can.
freakazziod.
use what magazine hit people.
i am so pissssssssed off..
after that when i hit his 2 front teeth.
still dare to show face and throw tantrum.
complaining about how violent i am.
u are the irritating violent one.
i wouldnt have hit u, if u, themoronicretardofthecentury didnt start it!!!!!!
he started the fight by using his stupid newman magazine to hit my leg nonstop.
who wouldnt get angry right.
somemore it isnt those hit lightly play play kind. its the "use full force/alot of strength" type.
damn painful lar.
i kanna bruises for no rhyme or reason.
ee-dee-ert.

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my dad called me on my mobile asking me if i wanted dinner.
u see, usually my mom does the calling, but we're not talking. u get my drift....

daddy: girl u want dinner?
me: anything. where are u?
daddy: mommy and i are in TM. what u want to eat?
me: i dont know..
daddy: u want nasi nonya?
me: whats nasi nonya? (i was thinking alongh the lines of some peranakan dish cuz got the word nonya right? or like something close to nasi lemak.)
daddy: that jap food lar. u know the beef rice one. nasi nonya.
me: WHAT?! nasi nonya? never heard of it before leh.. where u getting it from. what is that?
-then i heard my mom laughing in the background-
mommy: its yoshinoya!!!

HAHHAHHAHAHAH. my daddy's the funniest cutest father ever.
so now my mom and i are..... not talking but at least she laughed over the phone right?
that counts for something.
heh.

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2005-08-31T02:27:00.000+08:00

tonight, on the way home.
candle in the wind was playing on class95.
yeah remember elton john on the piano singing that song...
rachel and i both mumbled in unison: princess diana.
then it struck us..
its been 7 years since her funeral was broadcasted on channel5.
and what a long 7 years its been.
to think im only 20 and already feeling nostalgic and getting all sentimental.
what will i be thinking when im 30, 40 or even 50?
20 and feeling old, the irony.

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the mother and i had another major shouting match.
again!
yes, at 2 am in the morning.
its been happening so often lately.
she barged into my room and in an accusatory tone stated that she wouldnt mind slapping my face eventhough i'm 20.
i ignored her.
ignoring is always bad.
so she started her list of why i am sucha "slapmyface" daughter.
and that she totally does not understand WHY?! WHY?! i am sucha person.
then i ended it all by saying: yeah u can't understand because we're of different GENERATIONS! ok? get it?
then she shouted some incoherent sentences before heading back to bed.
i'm suprised my dad didn't wake up amidst all the noise.

sometimes i really do wonder why we even have our same stupid arguments over and over again.
yet when we're on good terms, we'd go shopping together and she'd treat me to whatever i want to makan.
perhaps its her over-concern.
or the fact she's going through menopause soon lar...
i just hope things will die down soon enough and all this shit will blow over.
i'm damn tired.
and honestly quite sad.

ive been pretty close to my mom since i was a kid.
much closer as compared to my friends.
yeah haha, we do compare notes about whether we're close to our moms or not.

so mommy, my best bet is that ull read this post.
because although you vehemently deny that u read my blog.
you're always damn spot on about so many things that are happening in my life.
how else can u know except through this avenue?

i apologise here.
i'm sorry mommy.
but if u do not read this.
i wont apologise again.
pride.

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2005-08-28T05:44:00.000+08:00

because i am lazy.
so so so damndamndamn lazy.
ruirui will slap my face when she sees this post.
u can click on her blog HERE to see the pics. heheheh.
on what we did for her prebirthday celebration!

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today i bought my boss's kid japanese hello kitty chocolate in the shape of little umbrellas.
i couldn't resist the wrapping.
besides, its my last day, might as well right? give that cute adorable little girl something.
i wanted to upload her picture. but something wrong with my handphone, cannot upload the pics. bah.
and guess what she said to me when she saw the little brollies of chocolate.
"ohh the unbwella is so smwall. how to pwotect me fom the wain."
she cant pronounce her Rs. hahaha. so cute so so cute!
she's 4 and a bundle of joy.
makes u want to have kids of your own someday.

my boss has like 2 tiny stores and one pushcart.
lets just say he is a very angsty sort of person.
who uses strong words and can get very pissed off and worked up about things like people ripping his tshirt designs and printing it in mass.
and he'll scrawl words like "fuck u cheeebye crossedeyed china whores" on the walls of his shop.
he named his main shop M.O.N.O.
his second shop Malice K6A.
like so cool right.
such powerful names.
and the theme of the stores are like black.
then when i was finally sent to man his pushcart.
guess what is it called?
MorMor.
yeah like really cutesey and and the whole pushcart is decorated in very much more girly fashion than his 2 stores.
i was seriously wondering what happened to all the anger? the scrawling? the loud blasting alternative music?
they even printed like little postcards with bruce lee having a speech bubble which states:
I LOVE MY MORMOR!
so i asked my lady boss, "hey corrine why is it this store is called mormor?"
then she mumbled: "eh.. actually its very lame lar.. how its name came about. u really want to know?"
of course i want to know lar right? talk cock.
then she continued: "this store is actually named after our daughter's favourite blanket. the one she sleeps with every night and has been with her since she was born. she likes to declare that she loves her mormor. so yeah. we decided to name the pushcart mormor lor."

awwwwww.

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2005-08-27T03:17:00.000+08:00

a special post for a special friend.

on the 29th august 2005 will be lee hongrui's 20th birthday.
so today we are here to tell you why we all love lee hongrui.
whatever is blogged here is either by the exact words of her close friends or msn-ed to me, onglye.

person no.1:

ang jingmei.
brief summary: angjingmei is leeruirui's sec 1/2 friend. then they dontknowwhathappen 5 years never talk to each other! but now!! theyre good friends again. thanks to who? me lar. heheh. ok lar, thanks to the redang trip!

angjingmei says: i love hongrui because bo pian, no choice, because she's cute? ok kidding,
cos she's my really close fren before in sec sch..and now even better fren. i love her even more after redang!! i love her tummy! i love her tears n winks!!

so schweet. long lost friends.. what more can a girl ask for?! right?

person no.2

racheltansiya.
brief summary: rachel and ruirui knew each other during their 1st 3 months of jc. dontknowwhathappen again, they drifted apart. but after redang, everything is wonderful, fine and dandy. all happy dappy. great friends.

racheltansiya: i love hongrui because she's the leader of our group. (what rachel means its the redang clique where rui really is the leader can!) and she likes to give us missions, then we'll carry them out.

note: racheltansiya's love for rui is much more than what is written here. she was outside and it was too noisy to talk thus the extremely short but sweet reason as to why she really loves leehongrui.

person no.3

me.
brief summary: ive been her friend since we were 13. 7 years of friendship. what i have for her is "more than love"! its "morelove!" so many stupid incidents happened as we grew up.

me: i morelove hongrui because...... we spent our adolescence together. going swimming, watching movies, wearing big ugly jnco jeans, buying the same bags, being with me through 2 horrible breakups, being the most humourous person around, agreeing when noone else agrees, laughing until she falls down, hiding in the toilet, kicking down my cubicle door so the world can have full view of my ass, but most of all, for being a friend for so many long long year. i morelove leehongrui!! 3 cheers!!! alot more lar, but i lazy to type can.

person no.4

Ceyu!
brief summary: ruirui and ceyu knew each other in NYP. i'm not very sure about how their friendship grew. but i do know, ruirui do tell me nice stories about her. like i always say: anything ruirui likes, i like too. so ruirui likes ceyu. i like ceyu too. i also know they always travel home together after school and ceyu will marvel at ruirui's eating skills. (her skills are very marvelous indeed.)

Ceyu: i love hongrui cuz she rou rou de, shao shao de.. like meatball! gun lai gun qu. LOL!
direct transalatoin: i love hongrui because she meat meat one, hot hot one.. like meatball. roll here roll there.

haha, i think what ceyu said is hilarious lar!!! hahahaahah. i like. very much.

person no.5

mingxiu
brief summary: she is another of ruirui's NYP friends. and shes tanned and shes cute. so there. what more can u ask for right? apparently all of rui's NYP friends are damn smart. stress sia.

mingxiu: Hongrui is very real! (yeah she really is. haha we all know that.) and a jiang yi qi person.. plus shes a very faithful friend.

everyone say awwwwwwww......

person no.6

yijun
brief summary: she is ruirui's JC pal. her favourite lines are: hey fren or got miss me (along those lines lar. heheh) i knw in JC everyone keep saying they look alike but i dont htink so leh... hahahaha she and ruirui together are a riot lar. funny as hell!

yijun: i love hongrui because she is funloving, LOUD!, self high anddddd............ crazy!! the list can go on and on leh.

yes the list really can go on and on.. but hor.. i asked her to stop there.. because...... i got to type more if she keeps on telling me why she loves rui. heh.

2005-08-27T02:40:00.000+08:00

today i went too church.
tom im going church again.
i am happy.
i am a happy church-going good girl! yes yes yes.

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and my tuition kid passed her science!!!
i cant believe it..
considering the day before her science paper we were folding those papier-mache flowers for teacher's day.
i was even helping her make the one she was going to give to me.
i never expected her to pass.
why?
because....
1. she never ever pays attention in class.
2. even when i teach her, the next week if i ask the same questions, she has already completely forgotten what i taught her the week before.

so this CA, i did not bother to pressure her..
just giving brief outlines about main stuff like what are xylem and phloem tubes, what is photosynthesis and respiration.
then we both started on the art and craft.
her mom came in and questioned her lar (luckily i was in the toilet) but heng ka lau sai bang sai jiak kau sai the assessment book was open!
and she was holding a pencil!!
haha.
she passed her science, despite the obvious odds and the fact i hardly taught her anything!!
i am jumping for joy!
can u feel my fulfillment as a tuition teacher?
if u know this kid, ull know why i am happy.
if she passes, its like there's manna raining down from heaven because its really a miracle in itself. (i even use biblical comparisons can!! hahaha ok out of point)
shes never passed her science, math or english before. thats how jialat it is can.
and now shes demanding a trip to escape.
hai. why? why escape? fun meh?

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2005-08-26T01:09:00.000+08:00

do u have a boyfriend?
why don't u have a boyfriend?
anybody chasing u now?
do u like anybody?
why are u single?
what are your expectations like?
are your expectations too high?
how many boyfriends have u had before?
why did u and your boyfriends break up?
are u sure? no love interest at all?

people are never satisfied with simple answers like:
i'm single because nobody likes me, i dont like anybody.
i'm single because i really am not interested in being in a relationship right now.
i'm single because i want to be.

is there a problem with that?
wanting to stay single.
perhaps your view that any normal girl my age would really want to have a nice boyfriend to hug and to hold and to call him my own.
but unfortunately, seriously, with all due respect, i do not find that appealing at all.
in fact its irksome.
i do remember a time where i lived for my boyfriends. but sadly, that time has come and gone.

so yes.
i'm single because i happen to want to be.
and no, i am not looking for love at all.
its as simple as that.
so please stop asking why this and why that.
singledom is the new black. whatever.

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my tuition kid passssssed her english.
yes she got 60/100!!!!
i am so absolutely proud of her!
she's never passed anything except for chinese before.
so right now im crossing my fingers for her science and math.
i love you grace, maybe just maybe, i'll being u to escape lar.
that is if i have the money.

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2005-08-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

the post with many numbers.

school starts on the 14th sept.
fees due on the 9th sept.
result should be out before the 9th of sept.
hols are waaaay too long, 4 1/2 months.
34 is the criteria to pass.
29th is the date of my ruirui's bday.
3, are the days i have to go to school when the new semester starts.
and i am considering whether i should take 6 modules this term or push 1 module to my last year.

such decisions i have to make.

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today kbox-ing was strange.
3 phlegm-filled girls.
clearing their throats, coughing through the highnotes.
but nevertheless, anytime spent with my redang girls is good fun. :)
but that saibee...... absent herself because of work lar.

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2005-08-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

my favourite racoon

my close friends all know me well enough to know that they should never ever buy me softtoys/*decorative items for my birthdays or x'mas gifts.
well, because i usually chuck them one side and not bother about them until perhaps one fine spring cleaning day where my mom finds it covered with a thick film of dust that it'll just graduate to its next phase of life, as rubbish down the chute.
BUT!
there is an exception. and that is for little peekyweeky, my favourite racoon.
i honestly forgot who gave it to me. (many apologies to that person)
i absolutely adore it.
anyone can see why.
its little "please dont hurt me" teeny face looking up at you with its itsybitsy arms placed in a prayer-like fashion.
everytime my mom picks it up during spring cleaning n goes: oei fee u want this? or throw away?
i'll shake my head and say: NO! can't u tell how cute it is! as if its pleading with u to keep it and shower it with lots of love can!
my mom will stare at it for a few moments and go: yeah quite true.. it is very cute.
and so the cycle has been like this for quite a few spring cleanings.
thats why i love my little peekyweeky racoon.
and i am not acting cute here ok!
peekyweeky has that effect on everyone.
its been with me since.. ages and ages ago. years infact. i lost track of its age.

*decorative items: this is placed with a star next to it because it doesn't include the precious moments figurine lee ruirui gave to me for my birthday this year. that one i love. i put it in the hall for everyone to see. heh.

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and i have good news!
erm.. good news to only myself actually.
i have constipation...... NO MORE!
wheee. :)

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2005-08-22T13:21:00.000+08:00

a very random post indeed

its only when i have the worst of sore throats that i start craving for fried oily heaty food.
icecream, kfc, hot hot spicy curry etc.
u name it.
i'm craving for it.
but the moment my mom heard my low raspy "sexaye" voice...
it was porridge with cod fish and alot of greens.
besides, i'm having constipation AGAIN.

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i was watching animal planet last night.
something about whale sharks.
AND!
they were showing the corals and the pretty schools of fish.
i started to miss redang.
snorkelling was damn fun.
all that plans to get my diving license, halted by the lack of cash. -sigh
it only takes like 3days 2nights to get the beginners one i think.
then if we (rui and i) get our licenses.. we can go to tioman instead.
oh its always all talk.

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i know this is going to draw flak from my friends........
but i've been pretty much enjoying church lately.
heh.
so much so that i really want to go for some special dinner thing they've been planning.
but i'm worried it clashes with ahruirui's bday.
dont worry ahruirui, u come first ok?
even if i do go, ill rush down for ur bday!

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2005-08-21T13:16:00.000+08:00

i met a boy.
whom i thought was hot.
but he shares the same name with a person i abhor to the deepest trenches of my heart.
oh bother.
when i heard that name, my balls shrivelled up like prunes (haha ok i have no balls. but its along those lines lar.)
sucha a waste, for such a hot guy to have such a disgusting name.
tsk tsk.

"hey sophia! come meet my friend"
i turned around to be greeted by someone tall, built, tanned, with really adorable dimples.
i thought to myself: wah he's hot sia.
then hot guy smiled and put his hand out: hi i'm "so&so". (alarm bells just rang in my head. like bbbbbbrrrrriiiiiinnnnnnggggggg!!!!)
i gave him my most guai lan glare, gave a limp handshake, mumbled: sophia here.
and walked away.

'i never knew that even the sound of that name can dig up such hostility and disgust within me.

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mr.z just pissed me off.
yet again.
dont friend u already lar!

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2005-08-20T04:07:00.000+08:00

today i would like to officially announce the ACBC's spokesperson of the year.
ANGJINGMEI.

she will also be the Chairman of the club.
did i fail to mention that she's also the Vice-chairman, Treasurer, Quarter-master, publicity director, welfare director, member.

and in case u did not know what ACBC stands for,
it is actually act CUTE buay CUTE.

u may be wondering why she is the role model for ACBC-ing.
i mean....
take a look at that doeful eyed look.
who else can seriously beat that?!
plus the flashing of the peace sign next to her eye?! pricelessssss.
and the pout?
done to perfection.
the angle of the shots.
the "look up and open eye big big" angle.
exactly 45degress of chin facing downwards, eyes 45degress upwards, nose must be made to look small, so must mouth.
and jingmei, doesnt even need to try.
she is the EPITOME.

the rest of the redang members (consisting of rui rach and i) are speechless.

rachel: "i never knew angjingmei had such raw talent!! she is simply the perfect person for ACBC-ing."

rui: "wow, when i see the pictures.. she simply reminds me of the tonnnnnes of girls i see on friendster, trying so hard to look sweet innocent and cute. but angjingmei nailed it! *saibee has proven herself truly worthy."

sophia: "i always knew jingmei was special, that she was more than just the girl-next-door! the pictures are breath-taking! saibee has outdone herself."

the ACBC files.

we have dozens more pictures. but too many to post online, perhaps someday.

*saibee - direct translation: shit smell. explanation as to why she's called that: too long a story, maybe another day. it is also angjingmei's stripper name.
heheheheheh.

personal message from soph to mei: love u love u lar. dont angry k?

2005-08-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

i'm STARVING.
i have an intense craving for plaster and teh-peng.

the supper people list
jingmei is asleeep.
rui has schhhhooool tomorrow. (so i don't even bother asking her.)
rachel has work tomorrow morning at 8. (ditto.)
mr.z has deadlines to meet for his project submissssion tomorrrrrow.
jaaaassssman lives too far away.
waiyan says cabbing down is about 7 bucks to and fro, plus shes lazy to change.

so i think supper tonight is a no-go.
boo.

2005-08-17T02:22:00.000+08:00

on the way home, i thought about *it.
as i took the lift up, i thought about *it.
when i took my bath, i thought about *it.
while i packed my room, i thought about *it.
while i washed my undies, i thought about *it.
while i'm surfing now, i'm still thinking about *it.

i shall succumb.
eventhough my bloody teeth hurts like hell (i just tightened my braces today.)
i SHALL EAT the instant noodles that waiyan bought for me.
buay tahan already lar.
cannot take it.
fat then fat lar!

my prized instant nooooodles!

finaaaaalllllly.

i've been in agony for the past 24 hours..
thinking and thinking about this damned thing.
waiwai, u really know how to GET me.
and ure right, the taste is so different.
unlike the usualy MSG-ey like taste of spore's maggie noodles.
i like. buy more next time okay?

--

why didnt you call?!
so much for saying u miss me.
/glare

--

i mother you too much.
i should really let go and let u make your own mistakes.
rather than trying so hard to hold you back for fear of u being a second me.
i'm sorry.

--

2005-08-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

my cousin is a sweet girl of 12.
and.. brilliant for that matter.
her compo was acted out into a play on some kid's programme because it was so well-written.
so, the producers decided to do an interview with her on the programme.
she did not utter a single word about the programme to anyone at all.
the whole family was asleep that sat morning it was aired.
at 9am, she sat alone infront of the television watching it.
if it wasn't for my grandmother who chanced upon it while flipping channels and eating her laksa that saturday morning, absolutely noone but her would have known about it.

her mom: grace. why didn't u tell anyone about it? we could've recorded it. sweetheart, its something to be proud of. u should have told us.
grace: mom i didn't want to tell anyone because the interviewer said i look like the great white shark at the end. because i'm fair and i'm fat. -she mumbled the reason in a hurt small voice-

who the fuck do u think u are to comment on my cousin's size?
so what just because she might be abit bigger than children her age, she should be told on television that she looks like a great white shark.
girls of that age are vulnerable.
it doesn't help if u pass snide comments about her on tv ok.
seriously, ure a fucking adult, act like one for goodness sake.
be more sensitive.
she's going through puberty........
and we all know how at that age, everyone faces insecurities about their identities.
WHAT IS THE WORLD COMING TO?!
i'm so pissed off for her.
FUCKKKKKKKKKK.
arrrrrrgh.
i feel like crying can.
it doesn't really matter if she writes great compositions right?
it doesn't really matter if she's such a smart kid right?
it doesn't really matter if she speaks well and has a great character right?
it doesn't really matter that her mom just recovered from cancer just a month back and she washes her own clothes right?
it doesn't matter that she studies hard for her own sake without any help right?
it doesn't really matter that she lets my grandfater win at daidee so he doesn't have to shuffle the cards because his hands trembles when he shuffles right?
all that matters is the fucking fact that she's fat.
oh fuck.
i am crying.
i hate the world tonight.
the earlier post about good things.
fuck it.

2005-08-16T01:29:00.000+08:00

for your information,
i do not like sitting amidst nature at midnight.
not when all the trees look sinister, the lights are a dark orangey glow and the crickets are creaking? (please tell me the exact word, u know.. cows moo, dogs bark.. then crickets?)
i do not appreciate the effort made to hide behind the trees and then disappear suddenly, neither do i enjoy being told that u can see flying white things behind me when THERE ARE NONE!
thank you very much.
ee-dee-ert.

--

i finally met waiyan after donkey years.
since she left to hongkong for a whole 2 months dumping me here in spore while she shopped like mad.
and the stuff she brought back are nice lar.
i love your birke's babe!!
and what did she bring back for me?
instant noodles.
yes. u read it right.
hahahah that woman is retarded.
sorry rachel i made u angry today.
u see, i did not leav u out little_rach85.

--

to end it off,
i liked how the day went.
and its pretty evident i'm in high spirits.
i hope it lasts.
i hope all good things never end.

--

because she wants to be here. so no choice.

jingmei says she wants to be part of this post.
so i put a picture of her lor.
hahahhahaha.

--

2005-08-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

mobsister (some hk "film")
i honestly did not get it.
i did realise the main character was always wearing red.
her uncles always wore articles of blue clothing.
the boy she liked always wore a red cap and in the scene where they finally met, he wore red and blue.
i did catch that she was trying to "reform" them (her uncles).
i know the colours should mean something.
whatever. seriously.
other than that.
i did not GET the movie at all.
its either its too deep or it sucked.
i like to think its the latter.
of course its better than Alexander.
but then nearly every movie is better than Alexander.
it was such a let down.
i'm blabbering.

the only saving grace?
ALEX FONG. (i think thats his name, i'm not sure)
he can so rival Tony Leung.
i think dear Tony has found his match.
-sigh.

--

mr.z ate a popsicle today.
the mama shop 60cents kind.
and now its no longer those wooden sticks that hold the popsicle.
they use plastic ones. somemore its like circular at the part u hold and u can place the entire popsicle on your index finger or rather his finger and it wouldn't fall off!! it looks like a finger condom.
hahaah. ok not funny.
but anyway, now eat mamashop ice cream also so hightech and the stick looks so pretty.

--

2005-08-13T02:10:00.000+08:00

the postcard i'd send to postsecret! hahahahaha.

to piss jingmei offfff...
i told her i'm going to post this postcard with my "secret" to postsecret:
i can't stand my friend because she has bad BO but she's the only friend i have.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA. saibeee. (private joke)
jingmei doesn't need enemies if she has friends like me!!
hahahahahhahahahaha.

to read actual postsecret postcards click here.

--

i just read this. i think its pretty funny.

*i've learnt that u cannot make someone love you. all u can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in. (how true hahahahhahahahahha)

*i've learnt that no matter how much i care. some people are just assholes.

*i've learnt that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof to destroy it.

*i've learnt that u can only get by on charm for about 15 minutes. after that, u better have a big willy or huge boobs.

*i've learnt that you shouldnt compare yourself to others - theyre more screwed up than you think.

*i've learnt that we are responsible for what we do, unless we're celebrities.

*i've learnt that people you care most about in life, are taken from you too soon and all the irritating ones never go away.

*i've learnt that no matter how hot or steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, after that there had better be alot of money to take its place.

--

once twice thrice.
i thought u shouldve learnt your lesssson by now.
but it seems like i thought WRONG.
the pentup frustrations.
u think i'm young?!
well f off.
i think ure OLD.

---

aaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2005-08-11T00:59:00.000+08:00

i just left that ajm.
i wonder if she's home.

--

is heartbreak really that hard to cope with?
i've forgotten the feeling.
i vaguely remember the dread of the mornings.
and the literal pain, which i swore was akin to stabbing.
when i look at u now, i can't relate to what you're going through.
i promised to be there, and eventhough i am there, i cannot fully comprehend the torment that eats you up.
i can only merely lend moral support and a listening ear.
u say: sophia you've been through this too! u know how i feel!! u do. u do.
time is the essence, it slowly ebbs away that sore wretched feeling, the unfulfilled expectations, the empty hopes that the mobile might ring.
then she reminded me: sophia!!! u soaked your pillows. curled up in a ball, unmoving. refusing to work, feigning food poisoning. slightly more than a year ago, you were crying. can't u REMEMBER that sort of pain?! it was just last july soph!
the verbal triggering did nothing.
the memories seem obscure.
u mean i was like that? i was? only last year?
she searched for empathy.
the lighted up recognition of her agony in my eyes.
so i lied.
oh i remember!!
but i do not, and neither do i wish to try.

--

2005-08-10T01:42:00.000+08:00

some people just don't get it.

--

i watched wedding crashers.
4.5 stars.
damn pee-in-your-pants funny.
i think it beats meet the parents.
which according to the sophia scale of funniness.
is very funny.
ok i think u get my point.

on to the next topic...
i tried to throw a faulty lighter into a nearby bin about 2m away.
but as u all know, my aiming is shit.
i aim at one thing but it can fly in the opposite direction.
thats why i was never good at those ball games. what netball, basketball, somethingball.
it flew like way way way further and hit some girl. i think it was a pretty hard whack.
and the amazing thing was, they were pretty far away and they were walking at a pretty fast speed. i have no idea how that damn small thing can fly so fast and "accurately".
i burst out laughing.
but her boyfriend was pretty pissed off......
he looked around and shouted: "was it you?" in my direction.
i mean it had to be me, there was noone else around.
then dear ol' jasman came to my rescue.
he shouted back in an incredulous tone: "no!"
and shot him the "are u nuts?" look.
i feel bad. i do. really. i didnt mean it what.
i just shouldnt try to the 'aim and throw' thing again lar.

--

2005-08-09T02:51:00.000+08:00

its never ever advisable to get involved with your best platonic friend.
the one u talk late into the night with.
the one whom u confide in.
the one u bare your soul to without the fear of being judged.
the one u spend hours with at the nearest coffee joint people-watching.
because when the relationship fails.
it leaves u not only with that lingering heartache but also, a lost friendship.
u cannot in any way, go back to the "before it all started".

the same easy banter.
the breezy attitude.
that "what the freak? u think she's hot? no lar" kinda talk.
even if there was effort placed in trying to keep the friendship going or perhaps pretending like it all didn't happen.
but the "it happened and it failed" will always be haunting us at the back of our minds.
which relationship doesn't end with grudges, anger. (there's always some measure of it)
its sad isn't it?
but oh-so-true.
i think i've said my piece.

--

i heart johnny depp.

2005-08-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

i went to read rui's friend's ceyu's blog. and apparently i'd die painfully as stated at the end if i dont do this. since im so bloody freeeeee.. might as well do it lar.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. sophia
2. soph
3. ah fee

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. so-fee-ah
2.
3.

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my height. sort of lar.
2. erm... my toes
3. i suppose i sorta like my ears.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. skin
2. nails
3. sammy. my paunch

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. s'porean
2. chinese
3. peranakan

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. cockroaches. i abhor them.
2. the movie shutter ghost which was sitting on that guy's shoulders. freakyshit.
3. the part in ju-on where the ghost appeared under the covers.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. sleep
2. eat
3. talk

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. tshirt
2. fbt shorts
3. glasses

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. pass ALL my modules no wait, make that do well for all my modules.
2. be happy.
3. go redang again, bangkok and backpack around europe! ok thats 3 things alr.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. stability
2. trust
3. genuinely kind caring understanding, not demanding, not controlling, give me a huge measure of freedom, will not take advantage of me (monetary sense), will not harm a hair on me, the sort that will want to go out rather than lie at home and do nothing. ok thats alot of things.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. sometimes i wish i was a more disciplined responsible person.
2. i really want to go back and be a good christian girl.
3. i dont lie.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. shoulders
2. height
3. smile

THREE NON-PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. character
2. his family. yeah im weird i know.
3. big hugs.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. go back to the past
2. fly
3. lick my elbows

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. sleeping
2. going online
3. talking on the phone

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. earn more money
2. watch charlie and the chocolate factory
3. scratch my sandfly bites.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. HR
2. PR
3. tai-tai

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. london
2. paris
3. redang

THREE KID'S NAMES:
1. stephanie
2. kai (yeah retarded. i know)
3. sophia

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO AT LEAST ONCE BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. find a soulmate
2. be a good christian
3. tour the world. cliche i know.

THREE THINGS YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR:
1. my parents
2. my friends
3. my handphone

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
toooo many to list.

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
Everyone who is reading this!

2005-08-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry i blew my top off.
i'm glad u aren't angry.
i'm sorry that i always harbour all my anger, never lettting it show and finally deciding that "oh i think ive had enough" then without any warning, throw hurl angry hurtful words.
rachel is right, i shouldnt always keep everything in, never ever voicing my anger or hurt, rather prefering to pretend i'm alright and smile eventhough i may be seething.
i'm glad its all settled.
i'm totally glad everything's ok already.
i love you so much more now!
and we're on a quest to beeeeeeeeee even bettttttttter friends.
-smuacks-
i totally enjoyed myself.

2005-08-05T14:18:00.000+08:00

pardon me, the photos are placed randomly.

in the train

now u know why we clal her mermaid

the 3rd person is unwelcomed.

ewww..

qianting!!

leo & idontknow

alllll of us

this... nvm.

the 3 of us

ruiruiand rach

ruirui and me.

all the fooood

bye

2005-08-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

i finally have some alone time.
a breather from the vicious cycle of moneymaking/spending.
mr.A, my boss said last night: sophia. considering the fact u spend much more than u earn in our store, why don't i give u your pay in the clothes u pick.
this is bad.

--

anyhow, its been a real long while since i slept in.
nothing better to compliment such a day than the slight coolness that sets in after a heavy downpour.
i have yet to draw my curtains since morning, refusing to budge out of my room except to pee, fill my tummy and get water.

--

so little unhappy thoughts fill my brain nowadays.
i am a satisfied healthy girl.
i am positively glowing.
-burp-

--
1 day to my babelicious jinggggg's birthday.
and 2 days to droops leaving.

2005-08-02T00:01:00.000+08:00

today is not good.
i had to rush for tuition, rush to work.
and i'm running a fever.
just yesterday, i was beaming from ear to ear.
what a change 24 hours can make.

drats.
and i just found out there's school tomorrow!

to mr.big-z, thanks for driving me home, suppering and even tolerating the fact i was sick and not good company at all.
dont be upset lar ok? i'm really sorry.
i know now its like my fault u feel feverish too.

--
to embrace the familiar or try my luck at the lottery.

i think this time it'd be: try my luck..
eventhough the odds stacked against me are huge.

2005-07-31T03:33:00.000+08:00

i hate my job but i love my colleagues lar.
i swear, they're the most retarded bunch of people ive ever met.
they spew hokkien vulgarities.
teach me all their hokkien vulgarities without telling me its vulgarities and ask me to say it to the supervisor, which i did with much gusto, thinking that by saying those certain phrases i would get 15mins more lunch. (acc. to them)
did i fail to mention, i'm surrounded by older men 24/7.
all my colleagues are guys.
they tell me about their kids and crack dirty jokes in the same sentence.
its nonstop lameassshit galore.
they interrogate me everyday about why i dont have a boyfriend and even help me analyse why i do not have a boyfriend.

1. its either i'm too "inexperienced".
2. i'm too "experienced" aka hiong in layman's terms.
3. i'm lesbian.

a certain colleague even did the most retarded thing ever.

scenario 1.
the shopping mall's basement was running a toyfair and during lunch he went up to some young girl.

young girl: hi welcome to the toyfair.
colleague: good ah good. what sort of toys u sell ah?
young girl: what kind u like?
colleague: sex toys la.
young girl: -shocked, stunned, unable to react-
colleague: i see u got sale for starwars lightsabres ah.. u got lightsabre that vibrates in circular motion or not? i need it lar. hahaha. u know lar.
and he purposely wore his reading glasses at the tip of his nose, tucked in his shirt, and talked with a lisp. he laughed nonstop cuz he knew he freaked the poor girl out.

i honestly wonder if these are the only things on their minds.
-jacking people.
-telling dirty jokes.
-to sell their electronic goods. (PSP etc.)

but aside from all the crazy lame shit they like to do/say.
they're really a bunch of nice people who love their wives and families.
and they take good care of me, treat me to suppers.
and constantly try to matchmake me with some commando who drives and owns an apartment, or some ABC with money. (talkcockbullshit lar)
tomorrow's the last day of work.
and i'm really gonna miss them.

2005-07-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

job description: PlayStationPortable (PSP) promoter.
perks: i hang one round my neck, everyday change game n play. hoot hoot!

yeah i can memorise all the shit.
let me extol the virtues of the PSP.

smiles at passerbys: hello, come come take a look at the PSP.

-its not only a game console, u can watch movies via the UMD video mode which willbe launched either at the end of this year or early next year, or even download movies to your memory stick and watch it.
-plus u can listen to songs via MP3 format, u can even view your pictures!
-16.77million colours. look at how clear the screen is, rivals a plasma tv.
-the battery life is about 4-5hours.
-the weight is approximately 260g including battery. very light i must say.
-u can view your JPEG photos, listen to your MP3 songs, watch your MPEG4 videos.
- data is transferable by using data cable from PC or using memory stick reader.
- Dimensions: Approximately 170mm (L) x 74mm (W) x 23mm (D)
- 480 x 272 pixels.
(say it with a super fast speed bombarding the damn customer)

not fun at all.
i have become the sophia "i am totally not tech savvy" ong to sophia "PSP expert" ong.
wow what a tremendous change.

tip: dont buy now, the white version will be launched soon.

2005-07-22T03:12:00.000+08:00

i want to get this.

from threadless.com.
retarded right? i'm only making fun of myself.
but i likkkkeeee it.
to get or not to get.
that is the question.
us$17/notcountingshippingfees.
ah well.

2005-07-21T04:08:00.000+08:00

slap me sober.

---
who else but u?

2005-07-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes nicknames stick. but they are for good.

i had a gd talk with. we-all-know-who.
and for once, nothing absolutely nothing mentioned about a certain matter.
it felt strangely pleasant and a form of release swept over me.

ive found a job.
no make that 2 jobs in fact.
wowee.
now its merely the battle of money vs. flexibility.
i want to pick flexibility but everybody around me says money. pick money.
it makes the world go round.

nice guys dont always finish last, i say.

and some people, constantly making use of others.
tsk tsk.

2005-07-17T15:26:00.000+08:00

clearingbowelsness is next to godliness.
trust me.

2005-07-16T17:31:00.000+08:00

i cant believe this is all unfolding.

sweet16 my foot.
now i wished it were "calculating, futurereading" 16.
there's a new sigh. yes sigh. u read it right.

---

i puked last night.
it was major-bendoverthetoiletbowl-dinner/afterdinner/supper-allcomeout sorta puke.
and my last words were: i'll call u later, i'll call u back.
but i never did get around to doing that.

---

*the night's excessive obtrusive music did nothing to soothe the unrest within my soul. the gyration of moist bodies pressed against, only unearthed the empitness of your non-presence. the loneliness, the despair of wishing you were there.

2005-07-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

braces day 2

to commemorate this special occasion.
we decided to take neoprints!
so that 5years downt the road, we can pour out all the stupid neoprints we take for rememberance!
whenever, i see that ugly faded picture of rui and i with short short hair and glasses i'll laugh.
so maybes someday id laugh at my fringe and perhaps even her gold-streaked hair.
heheh. who knows eh.

2005-07-13T16:31:00.000+08:00

food = mashed up beyond recognition / bitesize itty-bitty bits.

i'm starving.

2005-07-11T02:04:00.000+08:00

i miss leehongrui.
i hate it when she has school.

it means less time for each other.
no more sleepovers.
only seeing one another on weekends.
even our usual latenightphonemarathons are kept at a minimum.
bah.
on the 27thaug2005 is officially her next holiday.
and the 29thaug2005 is her 20th birthday.
the 2 damn dates i look forward to.
so now, i shall contend with mere weekends, that is if school projects dont suck her away.

babe, i'm so gonna miss u. -pout-
i know u lent me your whole set of 'young and dangerous' to keep me company.
but its still different, from having u next to me snoring away if the movie is boring.
heheheheheh.

2005-07-09T02:17:00.000+08:00

to the horrific secondary school hairdos.

Happy Birthday Tee Ah Kee. (aiqi)

cheers to the memories.
of the painful slaps on my back.
to the 2 years of u sitting behind me in class.
for the meteor garden vcd marathons.
the lunches at the caterpillar place.
the outright declarations of u having bigger boobs than i do. (fine, u still do ok?)

i'm so sorry.
i had to put this picture.
its hilarious!!!!
meet up soon alright?
enjoy ur 20th bday.
heheeh.

2005-07-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

i read my own posts and found myself so childish, selfcentered and irritating.

a bomb just went off in london, killing 40people.
aids, ebola, any incurable disease affecting millions of people.
famine.
wars.
terrorism.
poverty.
death.

yet here i am, obssessing over minute matters.
i really do wonder about the purpose of my existence sometimes.

2005-07-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

i've been whistling through the gap of my 2 front teeth for the past 1 hour and irritating the shit out of the mother.

her: ah feeeee!!! stop all that noise. i'm trying to read.
me: but ma, once the gap is closed, u'll never ever hear this melodious sound ever again!
her: there's a reason why i want u to close it. gedddit?!

so i'll carry on whistling.
till 0945hours on the 12th july 2005.

2005-07-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

i went back to sr.
yeah i did!
with fen n thomas.
(after parv told me how much the school had changed, i so had to go back.)

we saw our anal math teacher,mrs lim.
fen ran away, leaving me to tackle her alone!
if not for the fact that mrs.lim is this crazy workaholic math teacher whose only concern is her alevel average grade achieved by her students, which was why she rushed off to her next lesson, i'd most probably be scrutnised by her left right front centre about my current state of life and how i failed "life" because i failed math.
she sent me for counselling once because she suspected i consumed "illegal substances"?!!! why? because i'm forever late for her morning lessons.
yeah really.

it was a trip down memory lane.

then it struck me how i was hardly ever in school back in j2.
dont need to ask me why lar..

--

gabriel.
now ure forever known as the secretpassageway boy.
haha.
and thank you for listening attentively about that fateful night, 2weeks2days ago.

21. that lucky no.
7 x 3.

2005-07-07T00:09:00.000+08:00

i hate you.

2005-07-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

-guest posting by angjingmei.

hello. erm.. i'm falling at my own risk. i see a future. this is perfect. :)

back to sophia ong.

its disgusting. they cant stop talking to each other. even when she's sleeping over. all she does is talk to him. might as well go home and use her own phone right? ha.

angjingmei:

i like him ALOT! i'm falling.

sophia:

don't say you're falling lar. falling is bad.
sounds like you're gonna get bruised.

-end of post-

2005-07-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

[updated/]

i just watch Saved!
i highly recommend it.

i am christian. and it isn't in any way easier. my parents expect so much of me. outside and at home, i'm 2 different people. i'm not afraid to admit it. how many times my christian parents have punished me for not being a "good testimony"? for not doing the "right" things. there's always this certain "image" i have to live up to, especially infront of relatives. even the simplest of things. this may sound highly retarded but there are so many things i am not allowed to do.

take listening to "secular" music for example. aside from gospel music, everything else to them is crap.

but what if we make mistakes? being christian doesn't mean i don't face equal temptations with regards to so many things. we face the same thing everyone faces. there are so many things i wish my parents would understand. i've never ever cursed infront of them. to them the word "shit" is foreign.

but yet sometimes, deep down, i know thats the right way to go.
being christian is so hard to do.
i forget to say grace before a meal sometimes. is that wrong?
it makes me wonder if my parents falter.

oh lynnette, only u understand. don't u?
same stereotypical christian parents.
i love you mom and dad. i do.
but i am not your perfect christian daughter.
i think i'm as screwed up as they come.

--

i'm tired of waiting.

--

angjingmei so had to drop by my house like 10mins ago at 12.15am.
with me in my disgusting grey nightie (yeah i wear those little spagtop nightgowns from marks and spencers with a little bear on the front and the words "sleep tight" in bold beneath that happy looking bear.), hair all up, face dotted with whitecolouredbased pimple cream, glasses hanging precariously at the tip of my nose.
i'm sure u get the picture.
even her boyfriend got a shock.
he muttered (and i heard!!): is that some sort of dress you're wearing? heh.
aside from my family and my close friends.
few people have seen me in such a state.
YES, and she had to knock on my doooooooooor with her boyfriend in tow (and not to mention, they just got together.)
WAH LAU.
i feel damn paiseh.
nvm.
sooner or later.
people have to face the real me anyway.

2005-07-04T18:26:00.000+08:00

as of next monday.
i'd be getting braces.
yes, my dentist dissuaded me from putting those nice ceramic invisible ones which cost just a teensy bit more because it'll take about 3 months longer to correct my teeth.
so its one and a half years of grey metal.
hahaha.
i've decided to eat as much as i can this week.
yeah my mom is offering a treat to jumbo for seafood.
"sophia, we better go for crabs.... if not no chance.."

i remember dissing a certain boy and constantly calling him M&M aka Metal Mouth.
and the times, i pretended to swear hearing some sort of clanging when we kissed.
but we were 15 and he did try to ask me to get mine done with him.
i never knew why i didn't.
now i'm 20.
and am vehemently regretting not going "metal" earlier.
the perils of dental health.
plus my dentist made me promise to pay for my own cleaning.
yeah, he even convinced my mom that she shouldn't pay for it because its my own responsibility if i don't keep it clean.

oh now i sound like such a spoilt brat.

2005-07-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

i have so many things to pen down.
so many thoughts just swirling in my head.

yet, i do not.
a public blog just isn't an appropriate place.

some people like to write in codes.
i admit i sometimes do too.
but writing in a coded manner is a hassle.
because all my friends will ask me what it means.

2005-07-02T03:20:00.000+08:00

oh what a night.

its in the wee hours of the morning.
and i decided to break routine.
instead of brushing my teeth first, as usual.
i decided to wash my face before i brushed my teeth instead.
and, i felt unclean. like, i haven't washed up at all.
so i re-did my whole "usual" routine.
brush my teeth THEN wash my face.
it was only then i felt, hmmm.. ok at least now i'm refreshed.

sometimes, when we're so used to a certain sequence/routine.
we all end up being averse to change.
which is sad.
really.
because change could be better.

like the way i made certan decisions that required a hell lotta courage.
and now, life's way better.
>:)

2005-07-01T12:45:00.000+08:00

to the crazy stunts we always pull, may they last forever

since there is an onslaught of people doing photo collages.
i decided to jump on the bandwagon and do one myself!
the only difference?
people use photoshop, i use paint.
hahahaahaha.

the 3 of us only became really close after the redang trip.
but hey, friendship can blossom anywhere, not only on the stretches of sunny warm beaches. :)

2005-07-01T10:40:00.000+08:00

the sotong and i made a 1 year pact to remain single.

terms and condtions apply
- no boyfriends
- no little flings
- no rubba rubba-ing with guys at clubs

the only exception thats allowed?

- the right to flirt with non-interested parties.
such as other girls, salesmen so as to get a better price. blah blah blah.

BUT the sotong.
is going to break that pact today.
i can feel it in my veins.
heheheh.

i'm happy for her.
he's nice.
he's sweet, sensitive, very fatherly (i mean make a good father lar), he has a dress sense, beefy (i like! but the sotong wants him to be slightyly fitter, but i PREFER BEEFY lor) but its ok, he's enlisting to be a commando this sept.
and with all due respect, anyone can tell he's mesmerised by my best girlfriend.
he calls me to ask me if i know what time she's coming back to spore when she leaves on a short trip overseas.
he demanded to know the details of our pact.
he takes care of her when she gets high, dancing around retardedly by herself in one corner.
he does alot of other amazingly saccharine sweet things which i'm lazy too type down.
but of course,
being the great girlfriend that i am.
(she owes me a big big treat if she breaks the pact)
he asked me if i wanted her to be with him.
i naturally said i want the BIG BIG treat instead of telling him how much i'd miss her if she got together with him.
so he should know what to do lar eh?

but deep down,
i am sad.

her having a boyfriend means 3quarters of her time will be spent with him.
AND
the last one quarter of the time left, i'll have to share with her work, her home time yada yada.

i remember how its like.
when both of us had a boyfriend.
we can go without contact for 2 weeks straight.
she'd be busy with her own stuff.
and i'd be busy with mine.
then we'd (out-of-the-blue) remember each other and start calling and meeting up again.
then absorb ourselves back into our own lives again until another 2 weeks passed.
a very vicious cycle indeed.

so many of my friends have boyfriends/ girlfriends.
some others. starting school, working.

i depend on marc, my fellow disillusioned friend.
who promised a fun-filled saturday at sentosa.
with his golden retriever.
but he lar, also always busy.
dating 1 to a dozen girls.
so he finally decided he's free for me.
haha.

2005-06-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

alright.
i think i'm being really retarded.
but i really need to let off some steam.

i think what mei said was true.
if i'm overwhelmed and bowled over.
i do not stop to think or even breathe.
i'm not in any way the patient sort that likes and enjoys things to slowly and carefully progress.
the tendency to jump into something blindfolded is really sky-high.

the typical sophia goes:
oh yeah.
i'm feeling a rush of blood to my head.
this is so exciting.
i have apprehensions.
but its ok, lets try now and think later.

this formula so does not work.
oh someone, please slap me.
the last time something like that happened.
i nearly wrecked my own future and not to mention, LIFE.

friends.
mei strongly recommends that.
to be friends is best, for the longest possible time it takes.
n yeah, thats what i'll be.
a GOOD friend.
thank you very much.

2005-06-28T16:06:00.000+08:00

a lazy tuesday afternoon.
finally, a breather.
ive been up and about, only coming home for sleep since the redang trip.
days are crammed with movies, coffee, laughter, outings, shopping trips.

the little pleasures in life.
the warmth of the sun, cascading through the window sills.
waking up to a cup of tea and the papers.
sleeping in.
running errands for my mom.
lying on my bed, unmoving. (try it.)
the phone quiet.
there is completely nothing to do.

sweet.
ahhh....

2005-06-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

little india today! :)
click here for rui's pictures.

heh.

--

[updated/]
so he did try to make contact.
wow.
and.
1 month we shall wait.

1 whole month.
according to johnlim.
dont get your hopes up babe.
1 month.
ha.

i only said friends right.
FRIENDS.
why is it people doubt me.

2005-06-25T17:04:00.000+08:00

i've been feeling out-of-sorts since morning.
i think i need a job.

and FEN is back!!!!!
welcome home my babe-licious girlfriend.

--

everything went pretty smoothly for my aunt's wedding.
eventhough my makeup made me look like a chinalian.
thick light blue eyeshadow. -grimace-
and mervyn dropped the rings.
we did not walk on cue down the aisle.
i forgot to put down my aunt's veil!!!
yeah, so when the minister said: you may now lift the veil and kiss the bride.
there was no veil.
a few hickups but everything was A-ok.
and the food was good.
good food equals happy girl.

now all my relatives smile at me and love to ask me the same stupid question.

relatives: wah so big girl ah, got boyfriend or not?
me: no lar. dont have.
relatives: sure or not. next up is you.
me: no lar, i'm still young.
relatives: its ok to marry to young what. must get married. if want boyfriend, tell me.
me: -insert fake laughter- enjoy your food ah.

they really leave me speechless somehow.

2005-06-24T11:17:00.000+08:00

random question of the day: why is malaysia's KFC so much shioker than Spore's one?

ans according to my mom: because in malaysia hardly anyone eats pork, so they must make their chicken yummier since it is sort of their "main" meat of consumption.

AND it does make sense doesn't it!!

---

pre-wedding jitters.
so yes, its my aunt's wedding tomorrow.
and i'm the bridesmaid.
hahaaha, yeah sophia is a bridesmaid, anything wrong with that?
all i hope is either i wouldnt trip on my aunt's train or make her trip by stepping on her train.
the whole house is in a frenzy lar, my aunt calling my mom every other moment.
my mom commanding me to make sure everything is properly done.
bring this, bring that. take this, take that. remember this and that.
(i think my dress is not very nice/comfortable. -sigh-)

right now the main worry on my mind is that i'm starting to peel.
all my aunts were warning me against going to redang a week before the wedding.
but i did anyway.
and now, im peeling. SLIGHTLY.
i do not want to walk down the aisle and everyone will be staring at me like i have some sort of skin disease.
so so dead.
everyone's had their facials, booked appointments with their hairdressers, picked out their outfits..
and what does sophia go and do?
get herself horribly sunburnt.

today's key word: MOISTURISE!
those damn dead skin just need to stay in place for one more measely day!

2005-06-23T09:07:00.000+08:00

its always a lose-lose situation with my mom.
if she's upset about something and starts nagging/scolding/shouting.

i can :
1. keep quiet.
which is a bad move because it seems like i'm giving her the i-don't-care attitude.

2. apologise.
what for? when my apologies will be met with constant confrontations of it being insincere and i'm only using the word sorry to get out of my fixes.

3. try to explain.
yeah TRY, as if that will work. a mother's words always wins.

4. argue back.
HA. totally wrong move.

5. genuinely feel guilty and try to make up for it.
the efforts will be termed as "too late". doesn't make a difference since i already made a mistake. trying again is useless.

i wonder if what i'm facing is universal. or is my mom the only one.
arrgh.
i still love her anyway. i think.
okok i do.

2005-06-22T02:13:00.001+08:00

a flurry of activity

us, on the boat back.

convivial company. :)

fatpeople.:(
ok not fat. flabby.

even bettert han snorkeling! bananaboating.

the cosy room

little snippets keep flowing back about this entire trip.
i can't seem to contain it.
last checked, my 3 beloved travel buddies were perpetually online going through the pictures taken over and over again.
so i'm not the only one.
haha.
mei was telling me about how she's been msging her snorkeling guide (lan) the whole afternoon. exchanging lame information like makan already?
and rachel? doing the exact same thing with her guide(lik).
considering the fact that the guides msges get mushier,
long distance rships is what we call them.

this trip really bonded us girls together. don't u think so ruirui?
now i call the girls every other hour, see them online, arrange to meet them.
not a day goes by since the redang trip that one of us has not arranged to meet another.
which is really quite a sweet thing.
friendships strengthened through a few days of living together and fun.

i was initially worried about how everyone was saying: only when u travel u see the utmost truest colours of the people u're travelling with.
i'm really thankful to say, all of them were pretty pleasant people.
no quarrels, arguments or anything of that sort.

now i only look forward to the next trip.
anticipating.
i can't wait can.
and that stupid harry hasn't replied me on whether his phone has recieved my mms or not.

excerpts of harry's msges:

"ok sofia i stell everyday to redang ok where u friend i stell in my room. i miss for u ok sofia."

"hai sofia i back snorkeling now i tak makan lagi and i miss u ok no lunch lo. i stell the room now."

"rai (rui) find on not? i missing for her ok."

rui and i had like a crazy time deciphering those msges.
HAHAHHAHAHAHA.
our own interpretation of what he was trying to say.
hardly cohesive.
no punctuations.

BUT, its the thought that counts.
i'm just glad we stayed in contact.
redang redang, we miss u.
coming back soon, we areeeeeeee.............

2005-06-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

because i'm lazy.
these are rui's pictures.
click here.

and harry, one of our snorkeling guides msged me from redang.
he is quite the hottie.
great abs. heheheh.
and has a dress sense! pretty amazing eh.
plus he's a great dancer and can speak english fluently only when he's drunk. hahaha.
(rui and i think he's the best.) ha.
the next time we go he's gonna bring us night snorkeling.
n bananaboat with us since he couldnt go for the last one.

anyway,
the trip was great..
indescribable.
we saw baby sharks, humongous groupas (however u spell em), alot of nemos, pretty pretty corals.
i guess we were pretty blessed, the guides took a liking to us so we pretty much gotta see alot of things most people might not get a chance to see.
plus we explored the whole stretch of resorts, from one end to the other.
and also, all the boatrides where we sat on top of the boats or right infront, feeling the breeze.
and blue sand at night, yes fluorescent blue sand at night all over the beach (apparently its plankton).
we're def going back in september. :)

2005-06-20T04:19:00.000+08:00

our underwater camera crew

our snorkeling guides!

who can compete with rui's tongue.

i looook DAMN ugly underwater lar.

on zeee boat

at the back of the boat.

cuts, bruises, blueblacks aside.
this trip was perfect-o.
once rui is finally done with uploading the 200 over pics.
i'll upload it online or something.

2005-06-16T17:13:00.000+08:00

i pace round the room.

the minutes seem to pass so slowly.
freak.
arrgh.
2 more damn hours till we set off.

passport? check.
too much clothes? check.
underwater cam? check.
toiletries? check.
travel documents? check.
money? check.
tonnes of sunblock? check.

4days3nights of unadulterated fun!
with u crazy girls.

but of course where i wanna be most, is bangkok/hk with :). (july/aug?)

2005-06-15T12:44:00.000+08:00

12yearold kenta

kenta, a half jap little boy. full of spunk and vigour.
from having 9 girlfriends to losing his first kiss to yuki-san(his jap girlfriend) at aged 10.
what more can we ask for?

we watched mr. and mrs. smith.
everytime there was a kissing scene he'd be going "ewwwww" and covering his eyes.
ro swore there was a gap between his fingers.

kenta kenta.
today's incident is a classic.
he msged me in the morning.

kenta: what are u doing, sophia. from kenta.
me: oh hello. i just got up.
kenta: how about a date!

HAHAHAHAHAHA.
12 years of age and possessing the charm he has?
priceless.

2005-06-14T01:56:00.000+08:00

mybabytooth

BOH GAY!

today i went the dentist.
exctracted a baby tooth.
apparently i'm a late developer.
there's actually another tooth underneath of it. (but whether it will grow out or not, we don't really know)
so boh gay i am.
i might need braces.
-sigh-

anyway, when the doctor injected the anesthesia into my gums.
i lost my dimples.
yeah when i smiled.
no dimples.
hahah, it was rather traumatic for me to see it disappear.
but its back again!
oh this post is getting retarded.
i should just stop blabbering.

2005-06-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

i thought it'd end by now.
but it hasn't.

the trauma.
the locked rooms.
the fear.
the knocks.
the shrill rings.
the demands.
the disgust.

it all escalates into dark dreams.

i need a peace of mind.

---

do platonic friendships really exist?
between 2 new people.

---

2005-06-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

mervyn! my little sweetheart. he says: i'm a big boy! i am 4 going on 5!

when he was 2 plus.

now looking at the pictures. i realise how much mervyn has grown up.
my mr.hearthrob!
now he's equipped with a smarter mouth.
his mom: mervyn call uncle jeremiah.
mervyn: his name is so long.

awwwww.. i love him so muchhhhhhhhh.

2005-06-09T15:48:00.000+08:00

there are some people.
who love pissing the shit outta me.

too bad i deleted the msn conversation, if not ill gladly paste it here for the damn world to see.

usually it goes like: so do u have a boyfriend now? are u dating anyone now?
then it'll be followed by: we all have needs u know sophia. i think u need a boyfriend. u know, to satisfy those "needs".
then after that: well, if u really need someone. i can be there. u know like for making out. (when my girlfriend isnt around.)

FUCK U.
FUCK OFF.

2005-06-09T03:00:00.000+08:00

facialday. albeit a tad blur. nightmode lar.

it is 3.05 am.
the time that ajm and i seem to indulge in deep discussions online.
todays topic:
whether the colour brown suits her. (haha kidding)
great sex? (no, wrong again)

we talked about something near that though.
great sleep.

when i was a little squirt through the ages of 3 - 11.
i hated naptimes.
naptimes means less time to play.
its like my mom had to force me to take naps in the afternoon.
i really dont know where that sort of logic came from.
young child must sleep in the afternoons, sleep before 9pm an wake up at 7-8am?
now, my mom's naggings usually constitute of why i refuse to move from my bed though its already noontime or why i leave my panties there n do not wash it or why i seem to spend so much money.

ok out of point.
but yeah,
i sleep at 4-5am, wake up at 1-2pm.
fall asleep again at about 3-4 pm and wake up nearing evening.
i swear its a waste of days.
but that immense shiokness i derive from lying on my bed is indescribable.
its a form of escape when i slip into unconsciousness.
u never know who u might meet, what the next exciting dream will hold.
i have all sorts of wild crazy dreams.
me being spiderman to having hugh grant twirl my hair.
its a beautiful life in the other world.
plus when im not dreaming (nice dreams), i'm resting.
what more can i ask for?

but i do dislike the headaches that plague me when i sleep too much. heh.

2005-06-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

best part of the day.

2005-06-06T14:07:00.000+08:00

in retaliation to rui's post on steven! ha!

left: steven see right: bernard tan.

steven: i have never seen him before but i think i have heard more than my fair share of what i need to know about him. since u all know rui's blog is actually a fansite dedicated to steven! HAHHAHAHAH. babe, dont kill me lar.

bernard: our favourite pe teacher in jc. the only thing? he never taught rui before! hahahaha but its her favourite anyway.

i announce that steven has FAILED the QUALITY CONTROL TEST BY THE AUTHORITIES OF SUAVE MIDDLE-AGED MEN.

2005-06-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

rui = crazyfanofmr.bluejeannery.
now i know why she decided to work for Sony.
because he's in charge of all the major road shows in spore.
after picking her up from work today.
she talked nonstop about HIM.
yeah HIM.
someone. save me.

"steven is damn funny lar......"
"he drives proton generation2..."
"he speaks jap, hokkien cantonese really well...."
"he loves icecream.."
"he treated me to BK..."

if this doesnt stop.
i'm going to kill my girlfriend.
muahaha! ok lar, i wont. how can i kill someone lik her.

ruibangbang.shuddup about steven!

2005-06-05T04:19:00.000+08:00

so i finally got my template up and running.
the previous template, which lasted for a day.
was mainly a dedication to rui.
yeah whatever for?
because she had a bad day at work, and missactinnocentactflirt (acc. to her) was being a major bitch.
so to cheer my bestie up, i made a lame template to make her oh-so-very-happy.

charlize theron is hot stuff eh..
love her.

2005-06-03T16:46:00.000+08:00

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.
u know the concept of erasing certain parts of your memory.
i would love to do that.
just erase all the humiliation, the pain, the hurt, the lame stupid times i embarrassed myself.
the ugly growing up yet formative years of my sad early teenhood. haha.
if anyone could, they would certainly erase an ENTIRE person away. (for me that is.)

i like to read "real life stories" of any magazine.
someone writes an inspiring piece about themselves or a traumatic situation about what they've been through, coming out scathed yet moving on.
u can so imagine the titles:
"i contracted STD from my boyfriend"
"how i saved myself from a burning building"
"i used to be an obsessive compulsive freak"
"i was stalked before!!"
"i have a psychotic ex"
blah blah blah.

u always thought: wah so jialat, the person damn poorthing/brave/strong/persistent/sertwhateveradjectiveufeellikeinsertinghere.

but WHAT IF it happened to you?

2005-06-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

My Boyfriend is Type B

i went to watch the above movie today. i'm a sucker for sweet sappy romance movies.
this one was perfect to the T. boy meets girl under undesirable circumstances. fate brings them together. break up because of certain things and finally TA-DA! back together again after boy touches girl's heart with his "immense" sacrifice. happily ever after.i think i'm a rather big fan of korean movies. it has a certain sort of humour and quirkiness to it. alright since i'm on the topic of romance flicks. here goes my list....

top 5 rated sweet sappy romance flicks on onglye's list

Ever After: A Cinderella Story

1. EVER AFTER . beautiful beautiful show. drew barrymore. the whole story. the magical faraway feel. the gripping scenes where she nearly lost her prince. her evil stepmom. now i really feel like watching it now again. and drew (i cant remember her screen name) appearing at the ball with her wings, the glittery makeup and beautiful gown. priceless. -sigh- makes me not mind working 20 years as a maid under harsh conditions if i can snag a prince such as hers. i cried buckets i remember.

Jeux d'enfants

2. JEUX D'ENFANTS (Love Me If You Dare) amazing plot. i thought the plot was damn unique, revolving around that metal tin can (whatever u call it). perhaps after this post, i shall dig out the dvd to watch it for the umpteenth time. heh. i especially loved the part where they were kids and there was this portion where there was the make belief adam and eve story. ahhh.the ending was rather twisted but i LOVE it nonetheless.

Pretty Woman

3. how can any list such as this go without PRETTY WOMAN. the legendary film that made Julia Roberts an A-List actress. and Richard Gere, my hunky dory. he ages beautifully, i just watched shall we dance on dvd a few weeks back and that guy is getting hotter. who cares if hes a devout buddhist and old? this movie has all the makings of a romance flick's winning formula. girl from poor sad background, guy who is filthy rich falls in love with her and saves her from her sorry state. but who am i to complain?

Notting Hill

4. i am just a girl standing infront of a boy asking him to love her. ( it goes something like that doesn't it?) NOTTING HILL. hugh grant. the sole reason for my love of this movie. its humorous yet sweet, it sorts of twists that chord inside of your heart and hugh grant's unseemingly ditzy character together with his floppy hair. suddenly, it seems like making a star fall in love with u isn't all that difficult. and his room mate is hilarious. and plus who can forget the song: when u say nothing at all? ronan keating. haha.

TIE!!!

5. its a TIE! between LOVE ACTUALLY and SHREK.

Love Actually: A list cast. nice chrismassy feeling. how can we forget hugh grant. and colin firth. kiera knightly!! and billy mack singing that song! that laughoutloud rendition of shit i forgot the name of that song. ah who cares, im sure u know eh? i esp. like hugh grant acting as a prime minister. heh. proper suit and tie. oh yes, the spore screening censored a whole portion yes? a great feel-good movie. makes me wanna just melt with the christmas spirit.

Quote: Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.

and SHREK: u might say, how can an animation film count as a romance flick? this is my list so dont argue ok. i like shrek alot. the element of prince charming thwarted to be an ogre. watch it and u'll know why. Princess Fiona turned out to be an ogre too! but u know. if a person truly loves u, it goes just beyond the outward appearance. :)

2005-05-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

REALTIONSHIPS.

the word that has pretty much has been on the lips of my friends recently.
some just climbing out from a broken one, hurt/delusioned.
others just relieved to be out of it.

that big R word, i feel.
is so much more than commitment.
to me, its easy peasy to commit.
u dont want me to see other guys? sure.
u dont want me to even talk/msn/email/sayhi to any other guy? no problem.
i have made such sacrifices and i don't see any problem with sticking to one guy and not straying.

but to me, the problem is accepting his shit whole.
every guy has bad habits/problems/emotional baggage.
i can handle that.
but if it boils down to being clingy/sticky/attention seeking/quarreling about why i dont call u.
i cant handle it. i lose it.
(yeah i admit, i dislike guys who use crying as a tool. cry over small things. hello?! i think one person -thegirl- crying in the rship is enough for 2.)
so fucken irritating. yeah i have to use the F word here.
i admit i have once been a sticky girlfriend. (to the frustration of mr.ifinallygotahaircut heheh)
and it made the both of us miserable.

so now my perspectives have changed.
i want my freedom, i'd give you yours.
if u wanna poopoo outside, clean it up, dont let me ever find out.
because i believe, if he does cheat, and it was only for one night. (dont make it a habit lar)
in the morning, he'd wake up n come running back to me.
that girl wont ever matter again. (ideal eh?)
but if there's a 3rd party. then i'd say to u, pick her.
i wanna leave the rship immediately.
why drag on n make myself feel miserable right? no point.

i'm glad to be single.
after nearly 3 years of falling in and out of failed rships.
finally i have a breather.
phew.

goodfliend (AJM) quote of the day "good horse never eat last time grass."
meaning: never go back to your ex-es bitch.
hahahahahaha.
16the June 2005/3rd month anniversary of a pact AJM and i made. :) aye girl, its gonna be 3 months real soon.

2005-05-29T18:50:00.000+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 40%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 20%

Pride: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will die with your hand down your underwear, watching Star Trek.

How Sinful Are You?

ripped this off lynnette's blog.
wow. i'm an angel.
at this rate, i'm going straight to heaven.

2005-05-29T02:18:00.000+08:00

today was a good day.
good days come rarely for me nowadays.
my days are usually catergorised under:

1) HUMID. where u sweat like a pig/cow/horse/nsboyafterPT. fan also no use. ure in an airconditioned place then when u step out, the humidity hits u like a raging bull............. whoosh! all that airconditioning gone to waste. u sweat everywhere....... and the worst place for a drop of sweat to trickle down is? between your breasts. i swear. its freaken ticklish. u cant possiblty go scratch your breasts in public right? so u must try to be discreet. pretend to cough badly then hit your chest/or rub it. the plight we women are in.

2) SORRY. yeah its one of those: i lament n feel sad about myself. lambast myself. yeah.. why am i born like that ar? why my A's do so badly ar? am i fat? after that i bash myself up by saying: those hungry children are dying in ethopia, yet here i am feeling sad and sorry about myself. whats the meaning of this?! bangsai. shithead. im sucha selfish bitch. i should be happy i have clothes to wear n food to eat! its a vicious cycle really.

3) BAD. i argue with my friend about thelamest things like, why i seem so sarcastic when replying her messages. then i vehemently deny that i was being sarcastic then she questions our friendship. or i bang my leg into a door. or do something stupid in public like having an uncontrollable sneeze with saliva flying right into a stranger's face. (my hand-to-mouth coordination was too slow to contain the saliva u see.) or dropping a roll of old chang kee fishballs on the ground. cheebat.

4) PIMPLY. like a huge pimple pops out right smack in the middle of my left cheek. i shall not elaborate. these days are horrid.

5) THIRSTY. yeah one of those days where there's an amazing urge to constantly drink water. i'm being very specific WATER only. i love water. its the tastiest drink after pokka green tea.. and i can drink up to 2 litres within a very short span of time. which means.... i need to pee all the time and public toilets are DISGUSTING. always out of toilet paper. and on the toilet seats sometimes (i swear) u see little droplets of a familiar yellow liquid. or worse still, show prints. because someone decided to stand on it rather than sit.

but i predict happier brighter days to come. yes? i hope so.. -sigh-

2005-05-27T03:09:00.000+08:00

great! blogger screwed up on me.
bloody worthless. -wink-
thanks anon whoever u are, for copy n pasting the poem.

---

the briefest of glances, that fleeting moment in time.
I feel yours against mine

Thrice, our paths have crossed.
My impression etched.
beyond the delicate melting of breath against breath

The deliberate teasing as the light touched my lips.
For the last traces of your warm fingers against my bare skin;
raw.

i do not want to know u
becuase hurt only follows.
and trust is but the last resort

yet i wait, afar.
because of that minute measure of hope, that someday;
once again,
i will feel yours against mine.

2005-05-26T02:53:00.000+08:00

2005-05-26T01:47:00.002+08:00

2005-05-22T22:08:00.001+08:00

random thoughts of the day.

what in my right mind made me eat bananas, drink milk, meiji aloevera yoghurt while i was having a slight bout of diarrhoea today?

rui's loud belting of the school song while she was drunk. (HILARIOUS SHIT)

thepillow (aka joey, yes after the friends character) is smelly in the middle.

i remember how i used to fret over the question: if God created us, then who created God? i was 8 and i lost quite alot of sleep over it.

i wonder why kylie can look so pharken good lolling about on the floor, all sexaye and HOT. and if i ever tried that, i'd end up looking like an ass or getting my leg tangled in my hair or something of that sort.

why can't i have deeper, more philosophical thoughts?!!

that u always need to wipe your handphone with wet tissues, to keep it clean. yes?

i miss the days where u could start essays with, "one fine sunny morning, my mother and i....."

i think i need bigger boobs and a smaller paunch. rachel said she's willing to donate (some of her boobs), but we havent found any doctor willing to put his medical profession on the line for such a surgical procedure. NO silicon implants for me.

how my mom keeps bugging me to watch the wicker park dvd with her, yes shes outside in the hall waiting for me to watch it with her. i think she has a crush on josh hartnett.

that my exams are OVER!! but i suddenly realise. oh shit?! what am i going to do with 4 freaken months of free time.

that my soci lecturer told us that bananas are good for the brain. so eat more.

i like the heineken ad (the one with the people dancing in some sort of weird fluid-like motion and their ears popping.)

i also like the "australia" ad (red and yellow and blah blah blah)

remember the levi's Mr.Bombastic ad? ah years ago eh..

i have many many many other lame-o random thoughts. but i think i shall stop here. itd take ages to blog them out.

2005-05-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

gimme howard anyday!

2005-05-18T02:59:00.000+08:00

doesnt my longest toe? the one next to the big one look like.....

E.T.'s finger!!
hahaha.
yeah my friends diss me about it.
but have u seen anyone.. anyone at all with pretty dainty toes?
zilch. none at all. or at least to me.

i ought to be studying but here i am obsessing about my toes.
about how much longer my second toe is as compared to my big toe.
in fact, my third toe is longer than my big toe.
why is it i dont have nice long toe nails?

mr.comfortinsound --
stop fretting about the little things. dont wonder why your life seems so bleak when it actually isn't. i know i promised u a trip overseas. aus was supposed to be it, but i dont know whether its possible now. but perhaps bali or bangkok? somewhere near. and we can go to church together once my exams are over. :) yes, church. it is important. we need to find and settle down in a proper church dont u think? and u're not at all in any sense depressed. i promise. cross my heart and hope to die. i'm always a friend. so now don't say ure friendless anymore babe!!! i'm a phonecall away. oh yes hongkong. we can go hongkong! and search for the diesel bag u want so much!! we'll always be frieeeeeends. and even when u have a girlfriend someday and not wanna hang out with me anymore. id still be your pengyou. heh. -hugs-

2005-05-15T21:46:00.000+08:00

hello, come to momma!! where tuition money went to. :)

2005-05-13T00:49:00.000+08:00

i should stop scrapping by through life.
everything i do, is never great or wonderful.
it can only be catergorized under mediocre. average.

i wish i had something to my name.
my greatest achievement?
i honestly don't know.
i search my brain
only to find myself, having a slight migraine.
well.. i can talk on the phone for a record of 8 hours. (then again any girl can do that, with the right talking companion, and a hell lot of stupid gossip)
and as if that will improve the quality of my life.
i while away my time.
without having any specific goals.
and if i do have goals, i hardly, no make that, never ever achieve them.
its not that my goals are sky-high.
they're normal ones like i wanna DO WELL for a major exam for once.

oh u say, sophia's having one of her days again.
yeah i am, so what?
at least i'm thinking about doing something.
oh farkity fark.
i am so pissed off with myself.
about everything, anything.
and that damn headache seems to be looming right behind my ears.
and it doesn't help that i had an eye infection at 4am in the morning right before a major paper.
my parents arent talking to me.
why? because i told them i might fail one of my modules.
yeah whatever.
u need a perfect daughter.
but i'm way beneath (by miles) of their idealistic notions.
prim proper sweet filial RESPONSIBLE.
as they might put it: why can't u be a good testimony to your younger cousins?
its not as if i partake in the consumption of illegal substances, neither have i gone through an abortion and oh yes, i dont sleep around.
yeah yeah?! whats ur criterion for a perfect daughter then?
church-going, hardworking, and yes, i must sleep at 10pm and wake up at 8am. well whatever.

i pay my tithe, go to church on sundays, try to pray and read my bible. study when i should.
is that all not enough?!

its really tough being an only kid.
they place their hopes dreams on those shoulders of yours.
what they didnot achieve in their youth is now what is expected of your youth.
you are supposed to be their vision, their lost hopes.
the epitome of what they wanted to be.

they give me prettymuch most of the things i want material-wise.
but i think i need a break from being your perfect daughter.
can't i just be me?
but yet on the other hand, being me isn't sucha good idea.
i might never be able to whip myself into being a responsible adult.

perhaps i should sing that "sound of music" song.
i am 16 going on 17.
the only difference. i am 20 going on 21.

coming of age they tell me.
bull i say, i'm still that 13 year old who thought i was really going to walk down the aisle with the first boy i kissed.
hell was i wrong.
but u can't blame me, i was a mere teenager.

well, at least i can say: i passed my teenhood. (yeah i went to jc because i read teenage textbook. hahahaha)

2005-05-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

i just emptied my bag's smallest compartment.

tissues. (a whole lot of it)
smelly plastic bag from dontknowwhere.
paulfrank tag.
handsfree kit.
bookmark.
chewing gum wrappers.
chopsticks. (to bun my hair, no its not used for eating)
wallet.
a nice satin string from ireallydontknowwherethehellitcamefrom! hahaha.

not in the least a pleasant sight.
i hope what u stash, junk and all, doesn't depict what sort of person u are.
if not, i'll seem like a rubbishy person.
bah.

2005-05-07T03:58:00.000+08:00

i wish i had a little bit more.

past tense -- 4ever'r'us.

how to sanitise.
whitewash.

yit.
philanderer.
sarck.

2005-05-05T16:23:00.000+08:00

today i would like to thank my good friends. who have kept me company in this lonely 2 weeks and will perhaps continue to do so for nearly another month.

hello stationary.

cramming 1 year's worth of notes in 2 weeks is mind-numbing.
i would like to thank my constant companions, mr.pencil, ms.eraser and the many sheets of foolscap paper that accompany them.
also not to forget, my beloved ruler. he makes my lines straight, my graphs neat.
and my baby calculator, always letting me press all her right buttons and taking away the heavy load of adding subtracting multiplying and whatnot.
oh yes, and those pretty highlighters, whose colours brighten up my notes, the only rainbow i have seen since eons.
and the complement of mr.pencil, 0.5pentel lead junior. if the Px of Mr.Pencil were to drop, the Dd for Lead Jr. will rise. bah. econs. nowadays i cant talk without incorporating abit of that econs logic into anything and everything.
thank u for helping me, standing by me through tough times such as these.
i love u guys.
what can i do without all of u.
-sniffle-
*hugs.
thank u thank u.

2005-04-29T01:02:00.001+08:00

mr.ineedahaircut convinced me to let him drive me to east coast park for sugarcane juice.
at 10am in the morning.

so i agreed.
fun what right?

mr.ineedahaircut driving skills were.. albeit.. a tad reckless.
hump bump bump.
speed. jam brake.
stalled in the middle of huge junction.
the worst of all?
he couldn't reverse..
yes he said my daddy's trusty little kangoo is different.
we were stuck at the damn lagoon carpark for half an hour frantically calling everyone we know to see if they knew the trick of how to reverse.
we even nearly resorted to manually pushing the van out.
if not for a certain friend, who managed to find a colleague who drove a kangoo before, directing us with the instructions. step by step.

we thought all was well.
all was fine.

until........

my parents returned home from their short trip overseas...
my dad demanded to know why something fell out!
YES FELL OUT.
some black thing, most likely a car part i suppose, dropped out of his steering wheel.
to date, my family hasn't figured out what dropped out.
its been sent for analysis at our nearest friendly neighbourhood car maintenance shop.

so he questioned me.
up down right n left.
if anyone, anyone at all, touched his sweet retro yellow vehicle.

he warned me saying: i know this lil thing like the back of my hand.
i'll know if anyone ever even sat on the driver's seat besides me.

after much haggling, about punishment, which could not involve getting grounded, cutting my allowance.
i admitted, with grace and magnanimity, that i was after all a playful daughter who merely wanted to go for a spin in his beautiful kangoo.
i'm sure daddy dearest wouldn't want his lil kangoo to stay stagnant for days, bored, lonely in that small constrained area of a parking lot now, would he?
:)

yeah so my punishment is...
daddy: u BETTER go get ur license ok?don't tell me you're too lazy to go for lessons. after ur exams. then i wouldnt have to worry.
then we could probably buy another car since all of us can drive.

YES YES YES.
i love my daddy.
his punishments are the greatest.

2005-04-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

rachel likes this. she thinks its cute. i think its funny.

2005-04-21T00:38:00.001+08:00

hahahahaha. i swear.. this is awful.

2005-04-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

wah lau stop taking lar. waiyan always says this. but too bad eh. caught ya!

2005-04-21T00:37:00.001+08:00

my winning vote! angie!!

2005-04-21T00:37:00.000+08:00

hi. i am waiyan. i like to drink lipton tea.

2005-04-21T00:36:00.000+08:00

see what see. take what take. not happy ah?

2005-04-21T00:35:00.001+08:00

actually rui looks ok, she'll kill me anyway. heheh.

2005-04-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

aww so adorable. i love mervyn wervyn. so cute. retarded NOT!