neither black, nor white. just grey.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

i'm frightened.

the sights sounds n smells of hospitals scares me.

its only when a very close relative of mine is afflicted with cancer do i realise the importance of health.

the reality of being sick is too hard to handle. imagine chemo, your hair falls out n u're weak n tired all the time. your appetite is gone. the kinds of food you can eat are limited.

THAT scares me. i think i've taken my health for granted.

i eat fried chicken n all things unhealthy excluding the ORH in the ORH LUA (oyster omelette).

i complain i'm fat all the time yet exercising sounds like way too much work. the only time i really exercise is when i go to the pool to tan n swim a few laps. yes, i'm THAT lazy.

*SIGH*

Dearest aunty karen,

you're going to get through all this because we're here for you. my mom n all our relatives are constantly praying for u. continue believing in miracles and have faith to stand on the word. becuase Jesus said: "by his stripes, you are healed"

Amen.

it is hard to see your own mother cry.
harder than i realised it would be.