alright.
i think i'm being really retarded.
but i really need to let off some steam.
i think what mei said was true.
if i'm overwhelmed and bowled over.
i do not stop to think or even breathe.
i'm not in any way the patient sort that likes and enjoys things to slowly and carefully progress.
the tendency to jump into something blindfolded is really sky-high.
the typical sophia goes:
oh yeah.
i'm feeling a rush of blood to my head.
this is so exciting.
i have apprehensions.
but its ok, lets try now and think later.
this formula so does not work.
oh someone, please slap me.
the last time something like that happened.
i nearly wrecked my own future and not to mention, LIFE.
friends.
mei strongly recommends that.
to be friends is best, for the longest possible time it takes.
n yeah, thats what i'll be.
a GOOD friend.
thank you very much.
| 23:00 Tuesday, June 28, 2005
a lazy tuesday afternoon.
finally, a breather.
ive been up and about, only coming home for sleep since the redang trip.
days are crammed with movies, coffee, laughter, outings, shopping trips.
the little pleasures in life.
the warmth of the sun, cascading through the window sills.
waking up to a cup of tea and the papers.
sleeping in.
running errands for my mom.
lying on my bed, unmoving. (try it.)
the phone quiet.
there is completely nothing to do.
sweet.
ahhh....
| 16:06
little india today! :)
click here for rui's pictures.
heh.
--
[updated/]
so he did try to make contact.
wow.
and.
1 month we shall wait.
1 whole month.
according to johnlim.
dont get your hopes up babe.
1 month.
ha.
i only said friends right.
FRIENDS.
why is it people doubt me.
| 00:23 Saturday, June 25, 2005
i've been feeling out-of-sorts since morning.
i think i need a job.
and FEN is back!!!!!
welcome home my babe-licious girlfriend.
--
everything went pretty smoothly for my aunt's wedding.
eventhough my makeup made me look like a chinalian.
thick light blue eyeshadow. -grimace-
and mervyn dropped the rings.
we did not walk on cue down the aisle.
i forgot to put down my aunt's veil!!!
yeah, so when the minister said: you may now lift the veil and kiss the bride.
there was no veil.
a few hickups but everything was A-ok.
and the food was good.
good food equals happy girl.
now all my relatives smile at me and love to ask me the same stupid question.
relatives: wah so big girl ah, got boyfriend or not?
me: no lar. dont have.
relatives: sure or not. next up is you.
me: no lar, i'm still young.
relatives: its ok to marry to young what. must get married. if want boyfriend, tell me.
me: -insert fake laughter- enjoy your food ah.
they really leave me speechless somehow.
| 17:04 Friday, June 24, 2005
random question of the day: why is malaysia's KFC so much shioker than Spore's one?
ans according to my mom: because in malaysia hardly anyone eats pork, so they must make their chicken yummier since it is sort of their "main" meat of consumption.
AND it does make sense doesn't it!!
---
pre-wedding jitters.
so yes, its my aunt's wedding tomorrow.
and i'm the bridesmaid.
hahaaha, yeah sophia is a bridesmaid, anything wrong with that?
all i hope is either i wouldnt trip on my aunt's train or make her trip by stepping on her train.
the whole house is in a frenzy lar, my aunt calling my mom every other moment.
my mom commanding me to make sure everything is properly done.
bring this, bring that. take this, take that. remember this and that.
(i think my dress is not very nice/comfortable. -sigh-)
right now the main worry on my mind is that i'm starting to peel.
all my aunts were warning me against going to redang a week before the wedding.
but i did anyway.
and now, im peeling. SLIGHTLY.
i do not want to walk down the aisle and everyone will be staring at me like i have some sort of skin disease.
so so dead.
everyone's had their facials, booked appointments with their hairdressers, picked out their outfits..
and what does sophia go and do?
get herself horribly sunburnt.
today's key word: MOISTURISE!
those damn dead skin just need to stay in place for one more measely day!
| 11:17 Thursday, June 23, 2005
its always a lose-lose situation with my mom.
if she's upset about something and starts nagging/scolding/shouting.
i can :
1. keep quiet.
which is a bad move because it seems like i'm giving her the i-don't-care attitude.
2. apologise.
what for? when my apologies will be met with constant confrontations of it being insincere and i'm only using the word sorry to get out of my fixes.
3. try to explain.
yeah TRY, as if that will work. a mother's words always wins.
4. argue back.
HA. totally wrong move.
5. genuinely feel guilty and try to make up for it.
the efforts will be termed as "too late". doesn't make a difference since i already made a mistake. trying again is useless.
i wonder if what i'm facing is universal. or is my mom the only one.
arrgh.
i still love her anyway. i think.
okok i do.
| 09:07 Wednesday, June 22, 2005
a flurry of activity
us, on the boat back.
convivial company. :)
fatpeople.:(
ok not fat. flabby.
even bettert han snorkeling! bananaboating.
the cosy room
little snippets keep flowing back about this entire trip.
i can't seem to contain it.
last checked, my 3 beloved travel buddies were perpetually online going through the pictures taken over and over again.
so i'm not the only one.
haha.
mei was telling me about how she's been msging her snorkeling guide (lan) the whole afternoon. exchanging lame information like makan already?
and rachel? doing the exact same thing with her guide(lik).
considering the fact that the guides msges get mushier,
long distance rships is what we call them.
this trip really bonded us girls together. don't u think so ruirui?
now i call the girls every other hour, see them online, arrange to meet them.
not a day goes by since the redang trip that one of us has not arranged to meet another.
which is really quite a sweet thing.
friendships strengthened through a few days of living together and fun.
i was initially worried about how everyone was saying: only when u travel u see the utmost truest colours of the people u're travelling with.
i'm really thankful to say, all of them were pretty pleasant people.
no quarrels, arguments or anything of that sort.
now i only look forward to the next trip.
anticipating.
i can't wait can.
and that stupid harry hasn't replied me on whether his phone has recieved my mms or not.
excerpts of harry's msges:
"ok sofia i stell everyday to redang ok where u friend i stell in my room. i miss for u ok sofia."
"hai sofia i back snorkeling now i tak makan lagi and i miss u ok no lunch lo. i stell the room now."
"rai (rui) find on not? i missing for her ok."
rui and i had like a crazy time deciphering those msges.
HAHAHHAHAHAHA.
our own interpretation of what he was trying to say.
hardly cohesive.
no punctuations.
BUT, its the thought that counts.
i'm just glad we stayed in contact.
redang redang, we miss u.
coming back soon, we areeeeeeee.............
| 02:13 Monday, June 20, 2005
because i'm lazy.
these are rui's pictures.
click here.
and harry, one of our snorkeling guides msged me from redang.
he is quite the hottie.
great abs. heheheh.
and has a dress sense! pretty amazing eh.
plus he's a great dancer and can speak english fluently only when he's drunk. hahaha.
(rui and i think he's the best.) ha.
the next time we go he's gonna bring us night snorkeling.
n bananaboat with us since he couldnt go for the last one.
anyway,
the trip was great..
indescribable.
we saw baby sharks, humongous groupas (however u spell em), alot of nemos, pretty pretty corals.
i guess we were pretty blessed, the guides took a liking to us so we pretty much gotta see alot of things most people might not get a chance to see.
plus we explored the whole stretch of resorts, from one end to the other.
and also, all the boatrides where we sat on top of the boats or right infront, feeling the breeze.
and blue sand at night, yes fluorescent blue sand at night all over the beach (apparently its plankton).
we're def going back in september. :)
| 23:51
our underwater camera crew
our snorkeling guides!
who can compete with rui's tongue.
i looook DAMN ugly underwater lar.
on zeee boat
at the back of the boat.
cuts, bruises, blueblacks aside.
this trip was perfect-o.
once rui is finally done with uploading the 200 over pics.
i'll upload it online or something.
| 04:19 Thursday, June 16, 2005
i pace round the room.
the minutes seem to pass so slowly.
freak.
arrgh.
2 more damn hours till we set off.
passport? check.
too much clothes? check.
underwater cam? check.
toiletries? check.
travel documents? check.
money? check.
tonnes of sunblock? check.
4days3nights of unadulterated fun!
with u crazy girls.
but of course where i wanna be most, is bangkok/hk with :). (july/aug?)
| 17:13 Wednesday, June 15, 2005
12yearold kenta
kenta, a half jap little boy. full of spunk and vigour.
from having 9 girlfriends to losing his first kiss to yuki-san(his jap girlfriend) at aged 10.
what more can we ask for?
we watched mr. and mrs. smith.
everytime there was a kissing scene he'd be going "ewwwww" and covering his eyes.
ro swore there was a gap between his fingers.
kenta kenta.
today's incident is a classic.
he msged me in the morning.
kenta: what are u doing, sophia. from kenta.
me: oh hello. i just got up.
kenta: how about a date!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
12 years of age and possessing the charm he has?
priceless.
| 12:44 Tuesday, June 14, 2005
mybabytooth
BOH GAY!
today i went the dentist.
exctracted a baby tooth.
apparently i'm a late developer.
there's actually another tooth underneath of it. (but whether it will grow out or not, we don't really know)
so boh gay i am.
i might need braces.
-sigh-
anyway, when the doctor injected the anesthesia into my gums.
i lost my dimples.
yeah when i smiled.
no dimples.
hahah, it was rather traumatic for me to see it disappear.
but its back again!
oh this post is getting retarded.
i should just stop blabbering.
| 01:56 Sunday, June 12, 2005
i thought it'd end by now.
but it hasn't.
the trauma.
the locked rooms.
the fear.
the knocks.
the shrill rings.
the demands.
the disgust.
it all escalates into dark dreams.
i need a peace of mind.
---
do platonic friendships really exist?
between 2 new people.
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| 23:07 Saturday, June 11, 2005
mervyn! my little sweetheart. he says: i'm a big boy! i am 4 going on 5!
when he was 2 plus.
now looking at the pictures. i realise how much mervyn has grown up.
my mr.hearthrob!
now he's equipped with a smarter mouth.
his mom: mervyn call uncle jeremiah.
mervyn: his name is so long.
awwwww.. i love him so muchhhhhhhhh.
| 00:27 Thursday, June 09, 2005
there are some people.
who love pissing the shit outta me.
too bad i deleted the msn conversation, if not ill gladly paste it here for the damn world to see.
usually it goes like: so do u have a boyfriend now? are u dating anyone now?
then it'll be followed by: we all have needs u know sophia. i think u need a boyfriend. u know, to satisfy those "needs".
then after that: well, if u really need someone. i can be there. u know like for making out. (when my girlfriend isnt around.)
FUCK U.
FUCK OFF.
| 15:48
facialday. albeit a tad blur. nightmode lar.
it is 3.05 am.
the time that ajm and i seem to indulge in deep discussions online.
todays topic:
whether the colour brown suits her. (haha kidding)
great sex? (no, wrong again)
we talked about something near that though.
great sleep.
when i was a little squirt through the ages of 3 - 11.
i hated naptimes.
naptimes means less time to play.
its like my mom had to force me to take naps in the afternoon.
i really dont know where that sort of logic came from.
young child must sleep in the afternoons, sleep before 9pm an wake up at 7-8am?
now, my mom's naggings usually constitute of why i refuse to move from my bed though its already noontime or why i leave my panties there n do not wash it or why i seem to spend so much money.
ok out of point.
but yeah,
i sleep at 4-5am, wake up at 1-2pm.
fall asleep again at about 3-4 pm and wake up nearing evening.
i swear its a waste of days.
but that immense shiokness i derive from lying on my bed is indescribable.
its a form of escape when i slip into unconsciousness.
u never know who u might meet, what the next exciting dream will hold.
i have all sorts of wild crazy dreams.
me being spiderman to having hugh grant twirl my hair.
its a beautiful life in the other world.
plus when im not dreaming (nice dreams), i'm resting.
what more can i ask for?
but i do dislike the headaches that plague me when i sleep too much. heh.
| 03:00 Tuesday, June 07, 2005
best part of the day.
| 21:46 Monday, June 06, 2005
in retaliation to rui's post on steven! ha!
left: steven see right: bernard tan.
steven: i have never seen him before but i think i have heard more than my fair share of what i need to know about him. since u all know rui's blog is actually a fansite dedicated to steven! HAHHAHAHAH. babe, dont kill me lar.
bernard: our favourite pe teacher in jc. the only thing? he never taught rui before! hahahaha but its her favourite anyway.
i announce that steven has FAILED the QUALITY CONTROL TEST BY THE AUTHORITIES OF SUAVE MIDDLE-AGED MEN.
| 14:07
rui = crazyfanofmr.bluejeannery.
now i know why she decided to work for Sony.
because he's in charge of all the major road shows in spore.
after picking her up from work today.
she talked nonstop about HIM.
yeah HIM.
someone. save me.
"steven is damn funny lar......"
"he drives proton generation2..."
"he speaks jap, hokkien cantonese really well...."
"he loves icecream.."
"he treated me to BK..."
if this doesnt stop.
i'm going to kill my girlfriend.
muahaha! ok lar, i wont. how can i kill someone lik her.
ruibangbang.shuddup about steven!
| 00:02 Sunday, June 05, 2005
so i finally got my template up and running.
the previous template, which lasted for a day.
was mainly a dedication to rui.
yeah whatever for?
because she had a bad day at work, and missactinnocentactflirt (acc. to her) was being a major bitch.
so to cheer my bestie up, i made a lame template to make her oh-so-very-happy.
charlize theron is hot stuff eh..
love her.
| 04:19 Friday, June 03, 2005
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.
u know the concept of erasing certain parts of your memory.
i would love to do that.
just erase all the humiliation, the pain, the hurt, the lame stupid times i embarrassed myself.
the ugly growing up yet formative years of my sad early teenhood. haha.
if anyone could, they would certainly erase an ENTIRE person away. (for me that is.)
i like to read "real life stories" of any magazine.
someone writes an inspiring piece about themselves or a traumatic situation about what they've been through, coming out scathed yet moving on.
u can so imagine the titles:
"i contracted STD from my boyfriend"
"how i saved myself from a burning building"
"i used to be an obsessive compulsive freak"
"i was stalked before!!"
"i have a psychotic ex"
blah blah blah.
u always thought: wah so jialat, the person damn poorthing/brave/strong/persistent/sertwhateveradjectiveufeellikeinsertinghere.
but WHAT IF it happened to you?
| 16:46 Wednesday, June 01, 2005
My Boyfriend is Type B
i went to watch the above movie today. i'm a sucker for sweet sappy romance movies.
this one was perfect to the T. boy meets girl under undesirable circumstances. fate brings them together. break up because of certain things and finally TA-DA! back together again after boy touches girl's heart with his "immense" sacrifice. happily ever after.i think i'm a rather big fan of korean movies. it has a certain sort of humour and quirkiness to it. alright since i'm on the topic of romance flicks. here goes my list....
top 5 rated sweet sappy romance flicks on onglye's list
Ever After: A Cinderella Story
1. EVER AFTER . beautiful beautiful show. drew barrymore. the whole story. the magical faraway feel. the gripping scenes where she nearly lost her prince. her evil stepmom. now i really feel like watching it now again. and drew (i cant remember her screen name) appearing at the ball with her wings, the glittery makeup and beautiful gown. priceless. -sigh- makes me not mind working 20 years as a maid under harsh conditions if i can snag a prince such as hers. i cried buckets i remember.
Jeux d'enfants
2. JEUX D'ENFANTS (Love Me If You Dare) amazing plot. i thought the plot was damn unique, revolving around that metal tin can (whatever u call it). perhaps after this post, i shall dig out the dvd to watch it for the umpteenth time. heh. i especially loved the part where they were kids and there was this portion where there was the make belief adam and eve story. ahhh.the ending was rather twisted but i LOVE it nonetheless.
Pretty Woman
3. how can any list such as this go without PRETTY WOMAN. the legendary film that made Julia Roberts an A-List actress. and Richard Gere, my hunky dory. he ages beautifully, i just watched shall we dance on dvd a few weeks back and that guy is getting hotter. who cares if hes a devout buddhist and old? this movie has all the makings of a romance flick's winning formula. girl from poor sad background, guy who is filthy rich falls in love with her and saves her from her sorry state. but who am i to complain?
Notting Hill
4. i am just a girl standing infront of a boy asking him to love her. ( it goes something like that doesn't it?) NOTTING HILL. hugh grant. the sole reason for my love of this movie. its humorous yet sweet, it sorts of twists that chord inside of your heart and hugh grant's unseemingly ditzy character together with his floppy hair. suddenly, it seems like making a star fall in love with u isn't all that difficult. and his room mate is hilarious. and plus who can forget the song: when u say nothing at all? ronan keating. haha.
TIE!!!
5. its a TIE! between LOVE ACTUALLY and SHREK.
Love Actually: A list cast. nice chrismassy feeling. how can we forget hugh grant. and colin firth. kiera knightly!! and billy mack singing that song! that laughoutloud rendition of shit i forgot the name of that song. ah who cares, im sure u know eh? i esp. like hugh grant acting as a prime minister. heh. proper suit and tie. oh yes, the spore screening censored a whole portion yes? a great feel-good movie. makes me wanna just melt with the christmas spirit.
Quote: Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.
and SHREK: u might say, how can an animation film count as a romance flick? this is my list so dont argue ok. i like shrek alot. the element of prince charming thwarted to be an ogre. watch it and u'll know why. Princess Fiona turned out to be an ogre too! but u know. if a person truly loves u, it goes just beyond the outward appearance. :)
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