neither black, nor white. just grey.

Friday, August 06, 2004

there are moments that suddenly strike me n i feel really down for like 30 secs.
like SUDDENLY this feeling of sadness overwhelms me.
and i wonder WHY? why this? why that?
why does this happen to me or like why did i even make such a choice/decision?
thank goodness these moments are FEW and FAR between.
*shudder* it would be horrible to feel like that ALL the freaking time.
which was just what i was feeling about 4weeks ago.
time flies by and i catch myself no longer thinking about him at all.
in fact the image of his face in my mind seems rather hazy.
i realise how the past just remains the past.
and you move on with a new life, new things, new friends, new fun.
i really Thank God for helping me through and now i feel like the happy me again.
i can talk about isaac without feeling a tinge of sadness.
but rather its more like a comment," oh gosh! cute guy alert, isaac pattern!"
isaac pattern equates to big beefy guy with broad shoulders and a liking for big oversized tshirts.
bahaha!
oh but dont u agree?
would u want a skinny guy?
the type whose waist can match yours and u feel fat next to him?!
NO NO NO.
ok out of point.
i'm happy for me.
so u should be too.