neither black, nor white. just grey.

Monday, September 06, 2004

pardon me while i lambast the world with my nonsensical shit tonight

there are some days i wake up feeling damn pissed with myself an
for all my character flaws and physical imperfections.

hell, i even feel sad and sorry for myself. haha.

oh yes i'm insecure.
show me one person who's truly at ease and confident of themselves and think they're "perfect".

so far, ive met none.
if someone like that finally appears.
i'd strike both toto and 4D on that same day.

THEN being the typical me....
i'd think about those people living in ethiopia.
how they're all starving.
and how poor children have no food.
i'd feel bad for thinking my life is sad.

i always seem to be feeling bad or guilty.
whatiswrongwithme?
like my conscience works overtime.

i'd feel bad..
1. if i littered. (accidentally, mind you.)
2. if i used vulgarities. (which seems to be very often nowadays)
3. if i make my parents angry.
4. if i didn't do something i should've done.
5. for not thanking the aunty at the foodcourt who clears my table.

fuck, i feel bad all the fucking time.

whatiswrongwithme?

like now, i feel bad for posting this post and having the words fuck in it.
bah.
fuck it lar.