Wednesday, August 31, 2005
tonight, on the way home.
candle in the wind was playing on class95.
yeah remember elton john on the piano singing that song...
rachel and i both mumbled in unison: princess diana.
then it struck us..
its been 7 years since her funeral was broadcasted on channel5.
and what a long 7 years its been.
to think im only 20 and already feeling nostalgic and getting all sentimental.
what will i be thinking when im 30, 40 or even 50?
20 and feeling old, the irony.
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the mother and i had another major shouting match.
again!
yes, at 2 am in the morning.
its been happening so often lately.
she barged into my room and in an accusatory tone stated that she wouldnt mind slapping my face eventhough i'm 20.
i ignored her.
ignoring is always bad.
so she started her list of why i am sucha "slapmyface" daughter.
and that she totally does not understand WHY?! WHY?! i am sucha person.
then i ended it all by saying: yeah u can't understand because we're of different GENERATIONS! ok? get it?
then she shouted some incoherent sentences before heading back to bed.
i'm suprised my dad didn't wake up amidst all the noise.
sometimes i really do wonder why we even have our same stupid arguments over and over again.
yet when we're on good terms, we'd go shopping together and she'd treat me to whatever i want to makan.
perhaps its her over-concern.
or the fact she's going through menopause soon lar...
i just hope things will die down soon enough and all this shit will blow over.
i'm damn tired.
and honestly quite sad.
ive been pretty close to my mom since i was a kid.
much closer as compared to my friends.
yeah haha, we do compare notes about whether we're close to our moms or not.
so mommy, my best bet is that ull read this post.
because although you vehemently deny that u read my blog.
you're always damn spot on about so many things that are happening in my life.
how else can u know except through this avenue?
i apologise here.
i'm sorry mommy.
but if u do not read this.
i wont apologise again.
pride.
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